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Dear Uncle Jim,
I almost feel guilty. I think I've had the fun without the struggle - or so it seems to me.
I don't think I've had agonising separations from a loved one. I have been head over heels in lust and it's been unrequited; perhaps that's the worst I've encountered. But maybe having to conceal one's feelings (since acting on them would have been illegal at the time) was a strain.
Of course I've missed the fun of multiple relationships since I was married nearly 45 years ago. I was tempted but never fell. From what I remember of life when I could go to bed with anyone that would join me - that sort of life was full of anxiety and pain. I don't really regret giving it up. But, of course it was exciting too.
Now I'm old I wonder what I've missed. What about you, Uncle Jim? Do you have regrets? They won't be the same as mine, I guess, because I suspect that you din't have the option I did of adopting a heterosexual lifestyle. And now granddaughter Anna says I'm weird because I say I'm mostly gay.
Whatever I've given up it was worth it for Anna and doubl;y worth it for Gemma and Tom and Megan.
The thing about the world nowadays that warms the cockles of my heart is to read of gay couples adopting and bringing up children.
Love
Anthony
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