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[ Cautionary message and disclaimer: This post contains deeply confidential information of another person, which I will keep nameless out of respect to him (even though that person has told me he doesn't care much about such things). I hope you all will treat this information with the same level of respect. ]
This is really awful... 
I worry about my Brother in Spirit. Haven't heard from him in over two days now, nothing more than a quick email saying he was sorry for not being able to chat the day before yesterday because he had (unspecified) things to take care of. An email, which he wrote the day before that, but I read in the morning after due to time difference...
After that, zilch. Two and a half days now...
I worry, because the guy's not eating properly. He's of meager financial means, and the last few times we spoke, he's apparantly been on a diet of peanut butter/jelly sandwiches. Who knows for how long. He weighs something like 55 kilos, which REALLY isn't a lot for someone around 175-ish cm in height. I worry he might end up in hospital if he keeps this up, or maybe already have.
I also worry because he's depressed. Maybe even more than me. I try to be there for him as much as I can, pointing out how much he means to me (he's got the same kind of thick skin I got that makes it hard for compliments to penetrate). I tell him whatever things he has that bothers him, he can always unload on me if he needs to, or wants to. I do my best to try and brighten his day, but I don't know how successful I am in doing so.
Mostly I worry because he's had certain other tendencies in the past too. He said he hasn't done it for a while now and I have to trust him. I've asked him not to do it again (which probably is futile, I still have to try though). But I still worry.
There's not much that brings my Brother in Spirit happiness. He's been seeing a guy for a while, they've dated a couple times. One of the last time we spoke, my Brother had explained some, but not all parts of his situation to the (not quite yet) boyfriend in an email a few days before. When we last spoke, there had still to be a reaction to that mail, which was uncharacteristic. They used to mail each other just about daily before that, and my Brother was a bit upset about it. I don't know, my Brother in Spirit had been talking loosely about breaking off the relationship even though it seemed promising (his reasoning for doing so is too morbid to repeat, and I discouraged him as best I could due to morbidity-level of reasoning). I still worry though he might have reacted badly in some way, maybe if not-quite boyfriend wasn't ready to handle my Brother's situation. They were on the way towards something good, I think, and I hope they still am. My Brother in Spirit needs and deserves someone to hold him and to love him.
I have no idea what has happened. It could be his computer simply died on him and he can't contact me. It could be something else, something quite harmless. But I still worry.
Not knowing is the worst thing there is...
I wish he'd give me some kind of sign so I know he's okay.
-Lenny
"But he that hath the steerage of my course,
direct my sail."
-William Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet, Act One, Scene IV
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If so, I hope he takes some comfort. If not, perhaps he would like to.
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trevor
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trevor
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He says he's not the message board type.
I will still bring the topic up when (if? ) I manage to catch hold of him again.
-Lenny
"But he that hath the steerage of my course,
direct my sail."
-William Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet, Act One, Scene IV
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PHEW!
My Brother in Spirit emailed me today... He's been out with one of his migraine attacks, and on top of that he was hit with some bad news re. guy he was seeing.
But he seems to be okay. Unfortunately his finances is in such a shape his phone service is likely to get cut off this week, so communicating with him will get difficult.
At least I've heard from him again now...
-Lenny
"But he that hath the steerage of my course,
direct my sail."
-William Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet, Act One, Scene IV
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