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For those interested in knowing more about me, there's still the "The dark place that is me" threads (2 of them) if you feel some morbid, perverse interest to look into an unhappy guy's life.  They're on page 2 and 3 I think right now... I'll be a bit more rambling here, talking about how I feel at the moment, what my day has been like etc.
Today has been OK, I guess. At least using my own personal scale, to anyone else it'd probably be a dysmal day. I talked to my doctor/physician today, describing to her how badly (or positively, depending on the point of view) that Sigur Rós video affected me, which I watched for the first time a little over a month ago. She said I seemed more open, more talkative, than last time we've met. She may well be right, but I still feel so fucking lonely.
I then spent the day listening to MP3s, reading those of Tim's short stories I hadn't checked out yet (still some left), and actually getting some writing of my own done. I'm almost finished with my new story, if any of you wanna read it please email me since Tim is away (I've updated my account info with such details) and I'll send it over when it is done. I found out a while ago why I'd been having such a hard time finishing it even though it's been shining like a beacon fire in my mind. Some aspects of it hits too close to home... It's not a story ABOUT me in any way shape or form, but it still is kind of auto-biographical in a weird kind of way. Much more so than my first work.
It was Tim's stories that made me able to write at all today I think. They're almost all basically nice and cute and happy, and they must have cheered me up I feel. Thanks, Tim! I owe you...
I then went down to my gym at seven in the evening to attend my beginner's spinning class. It was exhausting like always, but felt good afterwards (also like always). I guess it's the natural dope released in your brain while exercising that does it, I'm always in a better mood afterwards, and it makes my "resting days" even harder. I miss my biking sessions, but people say the body needs to recuperate too, so I force myself to rest twice a week.
There was a rather sexy boy there tonight. I say boy, but young man is closer to the truth, I'd guess he was in his early 20:s. Like the word "boy" more though, so sue me. About my height, short and straight kinda dirt-blonde hair, wasn't extremely pretty, and had a little spotty complexion (but still good-looking mind you!), but oh GOD what a nice ass! I noticed him first before class, he was leaning up against a wall with his hands stuck in the pockets of his long blue shorts. He had pulled up the legs of the shorts just a bit so I could just barely see him tense up his great-looking thighs. Dunno why he did it, in a story he'd be probing the waters to see if anyone catched his bait.
I have pretty decent legs too, and when I was 23 and was pumping iron, I actually seduced a well-hung guy once in the local swimming arena simply by flexing my thighs at him. Too bad he was a bit older than me, or I'd never let go of him... I jerked him off in the jacuzzi bath, and that was it. A nice, but shallow memory. I plan to regain those legs, btw, just gotta lose some more weight before I start working out. Ok, intermission over, back to spinning class...
Later, the boy sat down on the bike almost right in front of me, and jesus, what an ass! Muscular, full buttcheeks, covered by a pair of tight briefs outlined beneath his shorts, briefs that were visibly riding up between those magnificient buttocks. I could not stop staring! Too bad our trainer put out the ceiling lights, which made it impossible to properly study him as we biked... But I got a good look at him during warmup, and MMMM...........
I had decided to speak to him afterwards, ask if he was going to go to the spinning class often and things like that, but he didn't get down to the showers immediately after (not sure where he went). Hope he's back next week, I'll ask him then! I took my time showering, sitting in the sauna for a while, and later I did meet him in the shower. Wasn't the right time to talk then though.  He was as good-looking without clothes as with, slim, not that muscular except those nice legs (a bit hairy) and ass (not hairy at all I think). Nice dick, large but not massive... Wished I was ten or fifteen kilos lighter, I'm down below 94 now, but still too soft around the waist. Dammit.
Ok, this is enough for now. More to follow later, I suppose...
-Lenny
"But he that hath the steerage of my course,
direct my sail."
-William Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet, Act One, Scene IV
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Alright, you people asked for it...
By: lenny on Thu, 07 March 2002 21:11 |
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Re: Alright, you people asked for it...
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Aaaaaaahhhhhhhhh
By: charlie on Fri, 08 March 2002 00:53 |
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Heh, you've upset Charlie again it seems!
By: lenny on Fri, 08 March 2002 11:05 |
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Re: Heh, you've upset Charlie again it seems!
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Cgarkie huh. Wandering fingers?
By: charlie on Sun, 10 March 2002 17:29 |
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Nah, I just like harassing David
By: charlie on Sat, 09 March 2002 00:41 |
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Dreamscape
By: lenny on Sat, 09 March 2002 09:31 |
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Re: Dreamscape
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Re: Dreamscape
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Re: Dreamscape
By: lenny on Sat, 09 March 2002 17:46 |
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This is so fucking wrong...
By: lenny on Mon, 11 March 2002 21:31 |
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It is a momentary plateau...
By: charlie on Tue, 12 March 2002 01:20 |
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I have to disagree...
By: lenny on Tue, 12 March 2002 10:41 |
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I hate to sound harsh
By: trevor on Wed, 13 March 2002 02:12 |
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Yes I can blame others!
By: lenny on Wed, 13 March 2002 11:46 |
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I'm trying hard to recall - the waist is supposed to be concave?
By: trevor on Wed, 13 March 2002 18:29 |
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Will you please tell one of us or all of us
By: tim on Wed, 13 March 2002 12:02 |
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It's Over...
By: lenny on Tue, 12 March 2002 20:50 |
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