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rockyraccoon
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Location: Mexico
Registered: March 2002
Messages: 11
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This is a letter I wrote to the one I love.
I wrote it yesterday, and haven't reviewed it until now. I didn't notice it may cause a missunderstanding. I won't do anything stupid, by "moving on" and "making a decision" I mean not seing him ever again.
Salut.
PS: Thanx to the webmaster of the site.
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This is a letter from me to a friend. To the person I love.
Everything here is true.
This letter may not make too much sense, but I don't wanna correct it. These are my feelings now, when I'm making a big decision, and I just wanted to say this both to him, and to everybody who has loved, and not been loved in return.
I never declared my love to that person, and things weren't magic as in stories or movies. Life is cruel.
I apologize for any mistakes, english is not my birth language.
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Dear xxxxx:
I met you about 8 years ago, we both were very young. My cousin introduced me to you, and, even though at the time I didn't knew it, I met love at the same time.
At first I thought you were just an ordinary person, and I didn't thought too much about it, after all, you met new ppl every day; how many of them are to become friends, let alone best friends with you?
We weren't the closest of friends, until, after 5 years, you got closer to me. That was when I first truly noticed you. I still remember it, you went to my place just to play videogames with me. After that afternoon, you came to me every single day. I don't know if it began like a crush, or it was love at first sight, but I instantly realized I wanted to be more than friends with you.
I still remember us playing Street Fighter, your favorite game. I would let you win, maybe because I wanted to see you happy, maybe because I was too busy loving you.
We used to hang out all day long, every day, doing nothing, and everything. At the time I was very lucky to have you, even just as a friend. At that time, I was the happiest person ever.
It was like that when, at least to my eyes, we became more than friends. We would bet on the game. It slowly moved to more serious bets. Maybe just play naked the next round, maybe just getting our dicks into freezing water and hold as much as we could. Then it became more serious stuff, sitting on each other's lap with our underwear only, until one day, I jerked you off. I still remember the feeling of your dick in my hand. Small, teenish dick. Hard, and yet soft, warm, exciting... I can't put into words what it felt like.
We then moved on to the next step, and, after intentionally losing a bet, I sucked you. That was, to this day, one of my most precious memories. You didn't came, but I know you enjoyed it. This repeated a couple of times.
I had passed the point of no-return then, and I don't even remember how it looked when I passed it. I couldn't think of anything else besides you, you were my first thought in the morning, and the last one when I went to sleep.
Time passed quickly, and your birthday came. I wonder what would have happened if things hadn't have happened the way it happened. We had a great day, a movie, board games, and alcohol. I remember you showing me your new boxers, and to this day, I wonder if that was a signal or not. I guess I will never know. We were drinking, haveing great fun, when you suggested we went to your place, since nobody was there, and we could continue drinking there.
Once we got there, your cousin joined us, and we all were drinking. I should have stopped you then, but I didn't. I remember you having a drink, when we saw the lights of your aunt's car. She came home early. It was at that precise moment when I realized how drunk you really were. We couldn't hide it from her, and you got grounded. You weren't supposed to see me. Not at all.
I still remember when you sneaked out and told me that. I couldn't show you how it felt, but it was a living hell. Every waking hour was a torment to me, I couldn't think of anything besides you. I spent my days remembering every single thing we did together. I wouldn't eat, go to school, bath, nothing. I was a zombie.
My mom asked me what was wrong. "Nothing" I told her. Such a stupid answer, of course she knew what was wrong. Even though I never mentioned her how I really felt about you, I know she knows. I don't care.
Days turned into weeks, weeks into months, and when I noticed almost 2 years passed. You were in my thoughts every single day of those 2 years.
One day, just 2 months ago, you knocked on my door. It was one of the best surprises I've ever had. My world was living again.
Or so I thought.
We saw each other again every day, and I loved you more and more every day.
One day, I noticed something different about you, but I wasn't sure what it was.
It hit me hard when I realized what it was. If you ever loved me like I loved you, that feeling was dead. I have been living a lie. I lie I created, and I so foolishly believed. You don't love me.
I know now you'll never love me like I love you.
If only I have had the guts to tell you how I feel about you 2 years ago, this wouldn't be happening.
I'm too in love with you now to just move on.
Again, I can't put into words how I feel about you.
I can only wish you the best ever. If there's life after death, I will still love you. I honestly hope there's nothing after death, I couldn't stand an eternity loving you, knowing you don't love me.
I failed. I couldn't stand life without you. I'm gonna give up after your birthday, I don't wanna spoil the party.
I guess this is goodbye.
Have a great life.
I love you.
PS: I'm posting this letter in the net, hoping other ppl will learn from it.
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May I ask
By: tim on Tue, 26 March 2002 17:03 |
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Re: May I ask
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A good plan is to consider rationale
By: tim on Tue, 26 March 2002 17:35 |
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Re: A good plan is to consider rationale
By: trevor on Tue, 26 March 2002 18:30 |
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Re: A good plan is to consider rationale
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what if......
By: tim on Tue, 26 March 2002 21:05 |
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Re: what if......
By: AdamAnt on Sun, 31 March 2002 13:19 |
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Re: what if......
By: ron on Mon, 01 April 2002 09:33 |
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Hi Rocky. I wrote a similar letter a few months ago.
By: charlie on Wed, 27 March 2002 01:00 |
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Re: Hi Rocky. I wrote a similar letter a few months ago.
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Re: Hi Rocky. I wrote a similar letter a few months ago.
By: Darren on Wed, 27 March 2002 05:10 |
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Rocky, I feel so very deeply for you!
By: lenny on Wed, 27 March 2002 05:10 |
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Re: Rocky, I feel so very deeply for you!
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sweet 16
By: trevor on Wed, 27 March 2002 20:06 |
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No worries mate!
By: lenny on Wed, 27 March 2002 20:10 |
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Be easy and try to help
By: Darren on Thu, 28 March 2002 01:22 |
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Quality time
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You got it Toyota
By: Darren on Thu, 28 March 2002 23:03 |
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Definitely not a child molester
By: tim on Thu, 28 March 2002 09:30 |
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Re: Definitely not a child molester...... Prehaps..... But...
By: marc on Sat, 30 March 2002 01:00 |
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spades
By: tim on Sat, 30 March 2002 21:44 |
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Re: spades
By: marc on Sun, 31 March 2002 12:35 |
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I am not keen on this thread as it stands
By: tim on Sun, 31 March 2002 17:42 |
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Re: I am not keen on this thread as it stands
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Re: Rocky, I feel so very deeply for you!
By: ron on Mon, 01 April 2002 10:17 |
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