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In many levels, actually. Feels like nothing's working...
Not much happening here, and my ISP seems to be having 'issues' right now. About 70% of the sites I try to reach time out instead. That includes my hotmail account so I can't check it for the seventh time today to make sure the inbox is still empty... Sigh.
Told Tim the other day I chatted a bit with a guy on a gay chat a couple days ago. Lives in the same town as me, he seemed nice. I gave him my email address, coz he had to work and didn't have the time. He sent me a mail with two pix of himself, I wrote a reply and included two of me. Nothing since.
Dammit, I JUST HATE THAT! At least he could have said 'thanks but no thanks', but just plain nothing?!? That's just so fucking rude, esp since he did seem like a nice guy. What kind of person takes the time to send you pictures, but not reply back? ...It just gets to me an awful lot, can't help it.
Okay, maybe I should give him the benefit of a doubt, but it's been over two days now. NEVER GET MY HOPES UP! NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVEREVER NEVEREVER NEVEREVER NEVER NEVER NEVERNEVERNEVERNEVERNEVERNEVERNEVERNEVER EVER!
It all just ends in disappointment. Oh fuck it...
Ah, there I did manage to get to my inbox. Yup, still empty of course. Why do I bother? I should just go to bed and sleep instead. At least that makes time pass. ...But of course my lingering cough decided to give me a break this past night, so I couldn't do it without feeling bad for it, I really did sleep rather well actually.
Maybe go out for a walk instead, but that also feels pointless. Why is it just about all I do turn out like shit anyway? Can't I be allowed to feel the least bit good about myself?
Exposing myself to the risk of success, am I? More like exposing me to the risk of getting kicked in my balls. Repeatedly.
-Lenny
"But he that hath the steerage of my course,
direct my sail."
-William Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet, Act One, Scene IV
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Things are all screwy right now.
By: lenny on Mon, 08 April 2002 13:59 |
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Those dredded risks
By: Darren on Mon, 08 April 2002 17:51 |
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Re: Things are all screwy right now.
By: tom on Mon, 08 April 2002 20:33 |
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Difficulties with life and such.
By: lenny on Tue, 09 April 2002 10:06 |
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Don't worry, Lenny
By: tom on Tue, 09 April 2002 11:58 |
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Who I can trust. (Not a question!)
By: lenny on Tue, 09 April 2002 18:29 |
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Everybody, please read the above post! Thank you.
By: lenny on Tue, 09 April 2002 21:32 |
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So maybe I'm dense?
By: trevor on Wed, 10 April 2002 00:12 |
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No, the truth is maybe TOO simple.
By: lenny on Wed, 10 April 2002 09:35 |
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