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i have not been around here long but i would like to say a few things about this place and the souls that fill its pages.
first off i little bit about me: my name is tim and i live in the USA on the shores of one of the great lakes, lake eire to narrow it down a bit. unlike a lot of you i am gay always have been gay and most likely will die gay, i have though lived the "secret" life for periods of my life. i was in the U.S.M.C. for 6 years and reached the rank of sarget...i was a total closet case in those years. after the corps i was a beach bum in vergina beach vergina..and yes i have hussled the beach and have turned tricks for money. at one point i meet a man who sort of kicked me in the ass and told me to do something with my life...a week later i found out that he had killed himself the night after i had meet him. ok so i drifted around for the rest of that summer and some how i ended up in college (dont ask me how cause i dont remember). in college i was the oldest guy in the dorm i was 25 and all the other freshmen were like 17 18, which was a good thing and a bad thing...i like younger guys...hehehe. ok back to the point, spent 5 years in college and finally got my degree in enviromental science with a minor in forestry, i wanted to be a foret ranger. i got a job working for a privet forest company and hated it every second i was there. the only good thing that i can say came out of that job is that i meet a guy name errol (skip). we meet had coffee and to make a long story short we ended up together for the next 5 years, until black thursday. this one thursday skip comes home and announces that he will be leaving on saturday and the moving company will be in on friday to pack his belongings. i was destoryed. he left and i spent the next 6 months sitting around wondering all the "would haves" and could haves". at my lowest point my shrink suggested for my to get a computer and 'go explore the world' via the internet seeing as other than work i would not go anywhere or do anything. after putting it off for like 6 months i finally got one. in the years from the day that i first signed on line i have been surfing and searching the web looking for some place where i feel like i fit in.
one day while searching a google string i found a story "The Misfit" by a guy named IOMFATS, well i cryed my heart out for like 2 days after reading that story and felt compeled to write the author and tell him how powerfull that story was in my life. the story i wont tell you about your going to have to read it for your self, but it brough flooding back to me a very long ago deeply surpressed memory of a young boy that i loved with all my heart and soul....matt. well to my surprize the author actually wrote back to me and we started chatting. tim suggested that i check out his web site and this 'little ' message board that he runs, i did and here i am.
i lurked for a day or 2 reading every post that i could and was totally shocked to find people like me , real people, honest people, caring people, LOVING people. i come here like 3 or 4 times a day to see what is going on and to be with my "friends" oh hell to be with my "family". a family of real people who are as screwed up as i am and as well adjusted as i am also. i come here to find peace, to find joy, to find my self.
you all touched me in ways i cannot begin to describe or put words to and you all have your own place in my heart.
LENNY...your trip to london was the best trip i have ever been on....and your troubles are so very important to me. not that i want you to have bad days but i need to know about them so i may help you and i may grow as a person.
SMITH...your wisdom makes me jelious.. your honesty and love that comes from your posts have made me step back many days and grin at how stupid i can be worring about little stuff in my life.
E...your 'Thoughts' are deeper than the oceans and clearer than waterford crystal....you have given me more to think about than i some times care to but for that i thnk you.
Warren C.E.Austin....new to the board....well maybe but it seeems that you are another soul that has found his way home....your thoughts and words aloso get me to thinking, sometimes i hate you for that but in a loving way.
ASHDAW....yet another point of view...i sometimes forget that the female point of view is one that is one i NEED to hear, there are no women in my life and i need to keep my brian and heart open to what you have to say.
JEN...i love your posts....short to the point andright on target, what it would take me days to say you get out in like 15 words or less.
CHARLIE...what else can i say but thank you....you have no idea why but i feel i owe you the biggest HUG of em all....just keep being the man who you are.
DAN....the man with feet that never seem to hit the ground...your on the run so much and moving like there is no tommorow, which makes me glad at times that i have such a boring life.
TREVOR...you my friend and i are cut from the same cloth...its funny how i seem to be able to know what your posts are going to say befor i even click on em.
MIHANGLE....not to be forgotten...you dont post as much as some others but i really do look forword to your posts... some posts make me think well yours make me feel.
AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST...TIM...ALL I HAVE TO SAY IS THANKS
and to you that lurk in the back round...JUMP in and join the family.
this is my place of safty and sort of my place of sanity, i love being able to come here and just be me. and you all are what make it safe here, safe to be me and safe to express my self...BIG HUGS TO ALL
later
peace
tim...of USA
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hello my friends
By: Guest on Mon, 02 September 2002 14:04 |
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Hello my friend!
By: lenny on Mon, 02 September 2002 18:31 |
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Oh Lenny!
By: e on Mon, 02 September 2002 23:45 |
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Oh, so you KNOW, do you?
By: lenny on Tue, 03 September 2002 00:38 |
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and Hello my friend
By: e on Mon, 02 September 2002 23:39 |
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Re: hello my friends
By: kevin on Tue, 03 September 2002 07:37 |
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Thanks, Tim
By: charlie on Thu, 05 September 2002 00:59 |
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