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icon6.gif Punching the time clock...  [message #9432] Sat, 12 April 2003 17:30 Go to next message
toms is currently offline  toms

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Hehe, just quickly saying "hi" while Bastian's in Washington, D.C. So far, everything's going great. Bastian and I are really getting along, and I've made so many new friends with the other 6 students who are here. Especially this really cute one, but that's another story... Wink

Anyhoo, let's see...oh yeah, these past two weeks have been so mentally and physically draining. I mean, it's like my friend Ryan said, it's like I'm taking care off a baby. I feel bad when I do my homework, because I wonder if he's being occupied or if he's bored to tears. Plus, there's a lot more communication and talking and conversation going on in the house now that he's here, and sometimes (although very rarely) I have to translate a word or two for him...and by the end of the day I'm just exhausted!

Done a lot of activities in the past few days...bowling, laser tag, going out for Chinese food and pizza, video games, basketball, the list goes on and on. But I've really been having a great time. Nothing against Bastian, though, but I kinda enjoy the time that I have to myself. So, like when he goes to other classes when I'm in school, I kinda like it, because it kinda gives me some sense of normalcy that I haven't had for 2 weeks.

I've done a little soul searching, although I really haven't had too much time to myself, like I said. I think after Bastian leaves I'll have to take a few trips to myself and just sit and think for a while. I've realized that I live a pretty disillusional life...in American Literature we've read The Great Gatsby and The Sun Also Rises, about two disillusioned men who stop at nothing to get the women of their dreams, even though their chances are zero. I mean, they're so disillusioned in their quest that they can't see reality, and when they finally do see reality, they're not prepared for it. And that's like me. I fall for a guy (straight, of course) and I fall head over heels and I'm blinded by this feeling of disillusionment. And then I'm knocked flat on my ass when reality hits (See: Conor, Coming Out To). I don't think it's really healthy. But, oh well, I really didn't want to dwell too much on it, but I guess I just did. No sense in anybody getting worked up over it, I'm fine. This exchange thing has kinda helped me detract attention away from the pain from Conor towards more positive activities.

Oh, speaking of Conor, hehe, the first day the Germans came to school with us, he was REALLY curious and interested about what was going on. I thought it was pretty funny to see all the stares and glances he was making towards our group. It just made me giggle to myself, I guess. Smile Maybe he'll ask me a question or two about how it went after the Germans leave (doubtful).

So, I think that's it...I've had a little bit more time on the computer than expected. Bastian goes to bed early some nights, so I'm able to pop on for some short chats. Plus, when I'm trying to coordinate events (because German girls in the same group are at a sister school), I do it on the net. So maybe I'll see a lot of you in the next few weeks, if Bastian hits the sack early. If not, I'll check in over Easter break, I guess. Smile

But, have a lovely holiday weekend if I don't see you guys til then. Muah! Love ya all! Smile

-Tom Wink



"Whatever is sought for can be caught, you know,
whatever is neglected slips away."
Oedipus Rex, lines 126-127
Re: Punching the time clock...  [message #9433 is a reply to message #9432] Sat, 12 April 2003 17:37 Go to previous messageGo to next message
thirdfencepost is currently offline  thirdfencepost

Really getting into it
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WOOHOO keep havng a good time dude...
Peace and Trees
~Andy



Why are you wearing that stupid man suit?
icon7.gif Wowie!  [message #9434 is a reply to message #9432] Sat, 12 April 2003 17:54 Go to previous messageGo to next message
lenny is currently offline  lenny

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I was almost starting to despair (I've been MISSING you dude!), and there you was all of a sudden. All pink and healthy, hehe.

Very happy to hear you're enjoying yourself, and I hope you're looking forward to your trip to Europe as well.

I wouldn't worry about being disillusional. The age you're in is basically meant to discover things for yourself and bump your noggin a couple times along the way - we all do that one way or another - so don't despair. It's perfectly normal. You shouldn't need to worry about being weird for...umm... Well, at least another fourteen years or so. Very Happy

Hugs n everything:
-L



"But he that hath the steerage of my course,
direct my sail."

-William Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet, Act One, Scene IV
icon7.gif Hiya Tom!  [message #9445 is a reply to message #9434] Sun, 13 April 2003 02:25 Go to previous messageGo to next message
david in hong kong is currently offline  david in hong kong

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Very cool to hear about all your doings! I really like it when I hear about anybody who is stretching themselves to learn about other cultures and other countries. It's the only thing that will ultimately bring international peace and understanding.

And I certainly know how exhausting it is to host foreign guests!! Translating isn't difficult all by itself, but as yoiu say, they need heaps of taking care of and being with them is much more involved than you'd ever predict ahead of time. Good for you that you're grabbing some time alone and with friends as and when you can.

And, as Lenny said (Hiya Lenny, email coming today I think...), teen years are for trying on various different "ways of being" and seeing what fits and what doesn't. Seems to me that you're doing fine...surely waaay ahead of where I was at your age!!

Hugs,

David in Hong Kong for 12 more weeks



"Always forgive your enemies...nothing annoys them quite so much." Oscar Wilde
icon6.gif Glad to hear things are well with you Tommy .......  [message #9449 is a reply to message #9432] Sun, 13 April 2003 15:44 Go to previous messageGo to next message
kevin is currently offline  kevin

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We miss you too.

Hope to see you again real soon.

Hugs,
Kevin



"Be excellent to each other, and, party on dudes"!
icon6.gif I Wanna Hear More About........  [message #9452 is a reply to message #9432] Sun, 13 April 2003 16:51 Go to previous message
smith is currently offline  smith

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the other really cute one Smile

We read Gatsby too...I really liked it and have the ending lines on my wall.

"Gatsby believed in the green light, the orgastic future that year by year recedes before us. It eluded us then, but no matter ~ tomorrow we will run faster, stretch out our arms farther ~ ~ And then one fine morning ~~~~~"

Gatsby was an innocent man, Tommy, full of hope, who created fantasy into his own reality.........but his dreams weren't worthy of him. He never saw that. Always remember to look inside people...down where they really live. That's the beauty you want. You'll find it.....you've got plenty of time Smile

Take it easy
{{hugs}} smith
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