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...with Sal. I'm really going to miss my Sal...he has been such a good person for me in many ways...Today i got the balls to give him my SN...lol i acually gave him my Clubbin Card ( a card i had made or when i go to the clubs so i dont have to write my name cell or im hehe ghetto i know but effective) but i havent gotten anything so im going to ask him for his tomarrow...our last day...with him...
I guess i acomplished what I wanted to do...be his friend...but I want to go further...cant ask 2 much from a striat boy. oh well. im going to miss him so much. hes cute face...little boy body...
I remember the first day i saw him...i acually thought he was gay becuz of the way he presented himself. it made me hopeful becuz i thought maybe i could have someone to talk with about in person...and he was so cute none the less. always me peeking in the back of the room just to check him out. oh i will miss him so. lol the first time we locked eyes and i blew it off trying to act cool.
then the move over to me...oh god bless that...we got close he was finally a friend. we talked had laffs. got to look at him more..got to see how cute he looked when he took a nap...like a little boy. i just wanted to hold him. him killing me with those sandals and shorts...*sigh*
then the other move the deprived me of my new friend...oh why...I guess it was good for him becuz he seems pretty happy were he is now which is good. i love to see him happy...with the smile that can kill. im glad he (unlike jessica) still talks to me after he moves. girls can be so....so...ugh anyways this is a boylove forum.
today...the day before. we started to play a game...you kno the teasing kind of game that has u look at ur hand and if he looks u get to punch em in the arm. hmmm...well you get it.
do you think its possible to love...like really love a boy with out truly knowing who he is? i mean with out spending so much time with him? is it possible? i think it is...
Salvatore...I will miss you so much
...i just hope i can get over tomarrow with out crying...
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saben
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But only because the word "love" covers so many different emotions in English. I think what you felt for Sal was love, not lust, but still it was attraction based love, which, while it can be a little fickle, I think is the best thing to base a relationship on, though without other love developing you'll never get a decent relationship out of it.
The clubbing card sounds like a damn good idea, though and I'm glad you got up the courage to give it to him, I doubt I would ever have been able to. I hope the two of you can keep in touch and while it is unlikely anything will come of it, don't give up totally, quite yet. As for Jessica, if you want to talk about her, go ahead. While this site does primarily focus on gay topics, it is not a gay forum, it is a place for supporting one another, whether that be in hetereosexuality, homosexuality, bisexuality, asexuality or anything else, we will try to support each other and help each other do what it best.
Look at this tree. I cannot make it blossom when it suits me nor make it bear fruit before its time [...] No matter what you do, that seed will grow to be a peach tree. You may wish for an apple or an orange, but you will get a peach.
Master Oogway
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Location: UK, in Devon
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Love the way you speak of it is half lust and half the desire to protect (or cherish) him. It cannot yet be full emotional love because you need to know him for that. We all start from different places. This is as good a start point as any other. Many loves start on simple lust, so you are already one step ahead.
Author of Queer Me! Halfway Between Flying and Crying - the true story of life for a gay boy in the Swinging Sixties in a British all male Public School
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well...last day...with him...with sal. im going to miss him too much...got to have fun with him tho. we played around at 2nd break. i was able to get his sn...hes on groundation thats why he didnt im me last night...but i was real slik about it like i always am  . i was taking some names and number from firends around me and went to sal with the sheet...so...real smooth i kno
well i got what i wanted ,well not what i really wanted, but i can still contact him. in a perfect world...there would be no difference if i was a boy or a girl...but what can you do right. good things dont last. i just wanted to hold him today...i tried to do the ghetto hand shake were u come together and hold the person but i was to much of a whimp.
im glad hes happy that hes out of summer skool...ugh 2 more weeks and 2 days left...oh man.
i thought ide leave some lyrics to one of my many favorite songs...it is some what how i feel right now...im sure youll get it.
All I hear is raindrops falling on the rooftop
Oh baby, tell me why?d you have to go
?Cause this pain I feel it won?t go away
And today I?m officially missin? you
I though that from this heartache, I could escape
But I?ve heard it long enough to know
There ain?t no way
And today I?m officially missing you
Ooh...can?t nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do, hey, baby
Said it stays on my mind
And I?m officially missing you
All I do is lay around, two years full of tears
From looking at your face all over
Just a week ago you were my baby
Now I don?t even know you at all,
I don?t know you at all
Well, I wish that you would call me right now
So that I could get through to you somehow
But I guess it?s safe to say, baby
Safe to say that I?m officially missin? you
Ooh...can?t nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do, hey, baby
Said it stays on my mind
And I?m officially missing you
Well, I thought I could just get over you, baby
But I see there?s something I just can?t do
From the way you would hold me
To the sweet things you told me
I just can?t find a way to let go of you
Ooh...can?t nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do, hey, baby
Said it stays on my mind
And I?m officially....
It?s official
Ooh, you know that I?m missin? you, yeah, yes
All I hear is raindrops, oh, yeah
And I?m officially missin? you...
Officially Missing You - Tamia
I will miss you Sal
-Angel
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Angel,
I know how you feel. I hope you get to keep him as a friend. I wasn't, or haven't been so lucky. A few months ago i pretty much didn't have a choice but to end my friendship with a straight boy. I fell for him a year ago, and there's not a day that goes by that I don't think about him. I would have been happy just having him for a friend. It gets easier everyday.
Brian
To love oneself is the beginning of a life-long romance.
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i will still miss him. i got tyler back tho...we ended our lil fued...and back to the old thing...hes so fine....but i still miss my sal...no one is like my sal...no one 
hes always on my mind
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