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Registered: March 2012
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Is everyhting so hard for?
Im back on the boat ( work on a ferry cleaning) good money.
I was here 17 days last time and this time everything runs more
smoothly since I know how to find things BUT I was here for
Adrian. I had already booked my trip to see him, he just want
to be friends and now I have no goal or ambition with being
here - I feel so lost:(
I want to amount to more than to clean toilets.
I want to study - in Malta cause I love it there and I know a
special person there ( not adrian) but adrian is whom I love.
I love him so much that in the mornings I want to scream cause
we have so much in common - everyhting is perfect.
I would do anything for him ( I mean that) and once i was
waiting for him in Bay sreet a mall in Malta and him and I
were going to the cinema ( x - men 2) and there was crowded
with ppl and he came in the crown. Adrian is not normally at
all the type i would fall for on the look department and
he does not stand out in a crown but when he came I knew
he was the one I wanted.
Now this other guy I know, he is gorgeous, he is way romantic
seems sincere, he sings to me etc ( nuhuh he aint swedish)
hahahaha
I like him and I wantto go out with him ( we will) but
I don't love him.
Maybe I will but Adrian is my all.
And I had him, just never had him.
Now I want to go to malta to see him and this other guy.
In september and I will have this salary from my old job and
for what i worked here so that I can go. I just don't have any
motivation.
I feel really lonely.
Josie
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timmy
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Location: UK, in Devon
Registered: February 2003
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Hugs you very tight
Author of Queer Me! Halfway Between Flying and Crying - the true story of life for a gay boy in the Swinging Sixties in a British all male Public School
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"But he that hath the steerage of my course,
direct my sail."
-William Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet, Act One, Scene IV
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am so tired. I worked eleven hours after one hour and 20
min sleep and today I have slept four cause my DOOR shake!
I tell them to fix it or to get me ear plugs or Im off.
Im falling apart.
Josie
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timmy
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Location: UK, in Devon
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At least jam the door with something.
Author of Queer Me! Halfway Between Flying and Crying - the true story of life for a gay boy in the Swinging Sixties in a British all male Public School
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Sorry to hear about everything. I'm glad at least he wants to be your friend, would be better if he plain wants you, but surely friend is better than nothing? Things might change for the better over time you know...
And yes, jam the door. I recommend a sock, has worked great for me in the past. 
Hugs:
-L
"But he that hath the steerage of my course,
direct my sail."
-William Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet, Act One, Scene IV
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