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i saw what was, single-handedly, THE most gorgeous person in the entire world. maybe even this world and another one, or MARS EVEN!! it goes like this:
i had to go into the ER last night (a bunch of drama all for a 4 second shot, but everything for now is fine and even if it wasn't ohhhhh man i'm so smitten it wouldn't matter!), and there was the usual flurry of techs and ER-vamps (blood-drawers) bustling around. once they found out WHY i was there they chilled out, and no doctor was needed, so i just had to wait a bit for either a tech or one of the ER-vamps to get a free moment.
one did. oh man. she was so pretty. not the stereotypical "girl-pretty," she was neither butch-ish nor inordinately done up, she was just ... there. and all these pieces i've been trying to lay out so carefully got thrown into the air again, and i loved it. she reminded me of ME, which is crazy -- as in, if i get to work there one day. what i mean is she wasn't wearing the traditional "powder blue" scrubs and a lab-coat that the vamps have to wear -- her scrubs were black drawstring pants and then a veryveryverydarkpurple scrub-shirt, and the labcoat had a bunch of personalised stuff on it, hard to explain.
she had GREY EYES. it didn't look like they were contacts, either. i think that's what did me in. i went from my usual cool as cucumber self to like, this stammering DOLT in five seconds!! she had hair like .. like how do i explain. have any of you ever watched the sit-com "roseanne" at all? do you remember darlene during her angsty period? long, very very dark brown and very curly without being crazy. she had it twisted up into something or other, and pieces were falling down everywhere. she wasn't curvy or busty, if anything she had a boyish body (likeido).
so i finally recover from just .. SEEING her walk in, and then imagine this, okay: you see this person and time stops, your breath stops, you forget where you are or why ... you recover ... and then ....
I HAD TO GET THE SHOT. in my HIP. which meant ... well you know what it means!!!! i bit down on my lip so hard i think i bit THROUGH IT. thankfully my mother just chalked my dazedness up to the demerol, and not what it REALLY was ... just ... wow. even if i never saw her again, i realised i can still feel things like that. like it's been forever since i had insane thoughts of shoving someone against whatever i can and kissing them silly.
AHHHHH!!! ok, i had to share that, just had to. HAAAAD TO!!!!  :-* 
my void does not want.
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i hadn't thought of doing that, like .... i SO want to, just to see again, you know? but also, my brother works in the ER, usually NOT third-shift though, and by the time i got in, registered, and in a room, the shift had changed. however ..... he HAS worked thirds before, and might know her. i can't imagine she's NOT known there.
probably she's straight. usually i have a real good sense about those things (gaydar for every gender!), but i was so blown out of my senses when she walked in, i wasn't able to think straight.
besides we can all have crushes, right?! that's all it is, really. i don't even think i SHOULD call my bro. to find out anything, or else he's going to wonder WHY. we're close, he and i, but not THAT close (yet anyway). only my mom knows and likes to pretend it's not real. then again i could always ask him who she is/her name, and when he asks why, i can just say, "oh she seemed nice, and i'm going into the phlebotomy program probably, if not EMT, and when it comes time to put in work-study hours..."
see harmless!!!! *plotting!!!!*
anyway it's really just a crush. for serious. as much as i want to, i wouldn't act on it since i'm by rights taken, but just wow .. to feel that again? that was all i need, for now.
yes .. small victories ..
my void does not want.
-- 2.13.61.
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I know THAT feeling exactly!
I felt much like that last spring after I'd been close to a cute Asian guy for just a few moments, and it's quite overwhelming really.
I'm giggling and smiling of happiness for you right now, so please accept a nice virtual hug from me, celebrating this moment of feelgood emotions. 
Take care. Hope you see her again, and that it's as electric a moment as it was the first time. ;-D
-L
"But he that hath the steerage of my course,
direct my sail."
-William Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet, Act One, Scene IV
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Good for you H. !!!! Now ya just have to actually do that kissing silly thing.
Love it when you have a happy face.
May you have countless more,
Kevin
"Be excellent to each other, and, party on dudes"!
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there's a chance, depending on bloodwork results, that i might have pancreaitis (i think i'm spelling that wrong), or else severe liver damage. 
meaning, it probably was not a crohn's flare-up that sent me in last night. *she* had taken 6 vials of blood, and apparently as of this morning a STAT order was put on it, in the lab, to find out.
if it is pancreaitis, i'll be in the hospital for a few days, on IV rest. maybe *she* will be who sets the IV up, and there'll be some kind of light there, huh??? ;-D if it's the other, i'm not exactly sure what they do for livers.
it was caused by my own carelessness: i'm on a drug called imuran (immuno supressant, monthly bloodwork to keep an eye on liver and B12 absorption), and sometimes i take it without food, and other days forget to take it at all, and recently got put back on it strict-mannerly, and they think that's why.
keep fingers crossed! i just wanted to drop a note in case i'm not around and posting for a short bit. it's come so that this board is the first thing i check when signing on -- before livejournal and one other board i'm on, even. meaning, well, i don't know what i mean, heh!! just that i'm here/reading a lot, and won't be if the results come back icky.
my void does not want.
-- 2.13.61.
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yeah, i'm lame! remind me next time to just not say a word until i know for sure, but the gastro-nurse sounded absolutely sure that it was going to be liver/pancreas damage. anyway, that bloodwork came out normal, other than i'm anemic and low on B12. so it IS apparently the wellbutrin (to quit smoking!!). it didn't hurt me the last time i took it, but then again, the last time i took it was before my system became a defunct system.
also, in an hour, i get darvocet as a consolation prize. some hells are worth the reward in the end...
all that's left of today is waiting for my brother to call back, and pretending i'm curious about The Girl for innocent reasons... *whistle!*
my void does not want.
-- 2.13.61.
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that was the funniest ever!
and yes, yes yes yes i'm trying to quit smoking. i've given in on the fight against anti-depressant/anxiety meds because maybe they'll help, and not hurt. but wellbutrin is famous for helping people quit smoking, so i figured it'd be safe.
cold-turkey is SO hard, and i turn into such a raging beast. and contrary to popular beliefs, i don't like to be a raging beast. but maaaybe if the anxiety/sad-stuff subsides, i'll smoke less, and then be able to quit easier?!
shi hates that i smoke. she reminds me everyday. things like, "haha, when winter comes you get to go outside and FREEZE YOUR PATOOT OFF to smoke!" and other such gems. 
eee! i shouldn't be so excited about The Girl. but i am, i am!
have a good day lenny!!
my void does not want.
-- 2.13.61.
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You deserve lots of smiles!
I'm glad your daughter's got enough sense not to try that nasty tobacco stuff - or so it would seem anyway. I grew up with a smoking mom and it turned me off that forever, I always hated it, can't believe anyone would ever consider pulling those cancerous fumes down their cute pinky lil lungs and turn them into sagging coal-sacks.
Today was a pretty good day. My bathroom is almost finished, I had a plumber here installing loo, sink and shower, plus my old beat-up radiator which will have a third coat of paint on it - sigh.
Unfortunately, the plumber wasn't anywhere NEAR the total uber cuteness that is Jonas the Tile-guy. I spoke a few words to him today and mine is the only bathroom he's done from start to finish so far! ;-D I complemented him on the excellent work he did, and a colleague of his - the one who did the rubber joints in the corner and along the ceiling - agreed it really was great.
By the way, if Ross the Intern is NOT gay, I'm gonna do a Socrates. (He just said - and I quote: "I never kissed an older man that much in my life!"... LOLOLOL! Never kissed an OLDER man? Haha!)
Grr, the plumber's SO not attractive! He's big and old-ish (oh, in his 40s) and fat, but he's colored (from the middle east) which I don't mind at all. It looks fine on younger, thinner men! ;-D
Later today - haha, it's 01.30AM - I have a carpenter and an electrician come 'round and do the final stuff and then it's all done. Oh, and the plumber comes and replaces my spankin new washbasin because the one I got was damaged in transit! Oh, it's no big deal, it's like ten or fifteen minutes of work, no more.
Hope your day was/is great, and thank you so much for the email by the way. I'll kick off a reply as soon as I can, promise!
Take care of you (and the giblets! ), okies?
-L
"But he that hath the steerage of my course,
direct my sail."
-William Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet, Act One, Scene IV
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well, even if the plumber is not as cute as Jonas the Tile Guy .. say, when do we get to see Jonas the Tile Guy? also, i hope that the electrician and carpenter prove to be Jonas-like! carpenter's are supposed to be good with their hands, aren't they? *cough*
if you actually do a Socrates on Ross the Intern, i will see your ante (if i can call it that!) and do something bold concerning ... oh, what to call her, i still don't know her name. so for now we'll call her Gray Eyes the Hospital Vampire. that's awfully lengthy ...
anyways!! ;-D if you do that, i'll go back under the guise of bringing my brother lunch, and try and be stealthy considering he uh, knows nothing of this about me, and see if i can't find her and make eyes or give The Smile (trademark: brian kinney) or something or other. hehehe!
and no worries about the email; whenever you can. and i promise to take good care of my giblets, the best i can. the smoking thing .. ugh, so hard to do, especially when i live with another smoker who shows no signs of quitting, or wanting to. i did it once though, maybe i can again. if anything, i'm at least or hopefully insuring shiloh will never ever smoke, like how it went with you! i can't even remember how i started, i just know it was young. probably some lame peer-pressure thing, given the crowds i ran with then, and the situation that went on. but if i can just manage to quit now, maybe ten years from now my lungs will be clean again.
hope you're having a good night/morning!
-h.
my void does not want.
-- 2.13.61.
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God forgive me!
When my father fell and broke his hip a couple of weeks ago, an ambulance came to take him to the hospital. One of the Emergency Medical Technicians was a MAJOR hunk, and the baser part of me actually envied my father's being administerd to by him. Thank goodness the situation assured that no one would think it in any way strange that I kept my eyes on him!
We do not remember days...we remember moments.
Cesare Pavese
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OMG that's so funny! well, not funny that your father had to go into the hospital via ambulance, but you know what i mean.
alas, my brother hasn't called me back yet. i know he's a busy boy though: aside from 35/40 hours a week at the hospital, he works every other weekend on the fire dept. and then the weekends in between THAT, he drives ambulances. this gives me time to plot my nonchalance, however.
oh gosh. forgive me, but your post also reminds me of a QAF episode (what doesn't, really???!!!), when ted finally wakes from his coma, only to find that brian, who can never ever ever help himself, is going at it with the nurse/doctor/whomever on the bed next to ted's. and his expression and muttering is just priceless.
/randomness, LOL!!  )
my void does not want.
-- 2.13.61.
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Well, it needs a lick of paint here and there (and I need a lick too - here and there *giggle*), but nothing major remains to be done. Oh, apart from a good cleaning, there's sawdust and gunk left by the workmen. Everything else's ready for use, and I even had my first shower in it yesterday before there was a curtain. It's really bright and SO WHITE. *giggle*
I really hope you do quit smoking. Kids really are harmed by it - as are the smokers themselves of course. If you live with a smoker, make her go outside and do his?/her? dirty deeds. I know it's tough, I went to the store yesterday knowing I was going to watch X-Men 2 on DVD that day and the urge to buy some potato chips or peanut rings or snickers bars was almost irresistible, and as far as I know none of those things are actually addictive! However, I grabbed a firm mental hold of myself and bought food ONLY, and then I drank lots of tea instead when I came home which gave me a very active bladder for the rest of the day... *laughs* Oh well, better that than eating a ton of candy, heh.
Now, I got all these pics of Jonas and other stuff, but I don't know diddly squat about html. On my old Amiga, there was this program called Scala many moons ago that did beautiful presentations and was way easy to use. Unfortunately it didn't do html (it was a totally custom format, long before the WWW was discovered hehe). I haven't ever found a program that was as easy to use and as slick and powerful. Wish there was an easy tool to just like...MAKE a webpage.
Can someone help me please?
Take care now. Be good, and good luck with finding out more about that hot vampire!
Hugs:
-L
"But he that hath the steerage of my course,
direct my sail."
-William Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet, Act One, Scene IV
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have you ever heard of the program dreamweaver, or is it available where you are? because i don't know a whole lot about HTML, but with dreamweaver you just plug in what you want, insert the pictures (being sure that your picture files and stuff are saved in a folder IN the dreamweaver program) and then you upload it to whatever server you use.
if anything, if you have free webspace anywhere, you can just UL the pictures to the actual space, at least, for now. it won't be a fancy webpage, but the URL would just be http://www.yaddaspace.com/something/picturename.jpg and then we'd see the pictures, until you're able to find something. as far as i know, dreamweaver is your best bet, and sounds a lot like the program you used to have. i'm not sure how much it is, as i sort of have a half-pirated copy. half because it belongs to a good friend, who installed it on my computer. *sheepish*
you, mister lenny, are shameless by the way. because you are cute: *gives a lick here and there, but NOT there or there, or *that* here and there!*
way to go on the shopping/buying willpower! i do the same thing!!! i will go and have it in my head that i deserve this or that, and will buy this and this when i go to get that, and most of the time can reason my way out of it. except hair dye. i really need to buy that soon. that and QAF season 2, when my school loan gets here and AFTER i have made the very-last-payment-on-my-car-yaaaay!!!! snickers sound so yummy though. but tea is good too. i drink massive amounts of it (uncaffeinated) to the point i probably could not live without it. i don't drink pop (or soda as some not from michigan say), and while i do drink coffee, it is uncaffeinated too. usually.
i really really hope i quit smoking too. right now i'm trying to cut down, but it's so hard. it will be easier as soon as classes start though, because i'm not sure what the breaks will be like (monday to thursday, noon to 2:30, and then on wednesday an additional nightclass from 6 to 9:40) and being that i'm taking a health oriented program (either EMT tech or phlebotomy tech) i'm sure that there will be at least SOMEONE in the class who is anti smoking and i can beg to keep me from stepping outside. plus, this campus, while being smaller than my old college (community college), has a gorgeous campus with bansai tree gardens and all sorts of rock gardens, and the designated smoking areas are few and far between. so that will help keep me in check during the day. it's the night i always break and smoke. i'm a night-owl and just .. yeah. have to quit!!! :-/
still waiting on ER-Vamp's name. my brother called my cell but did not leave a message, this was sometime around 2 am, ack! so we'll see.
hugs for you!
h.
my void does not want.
-- 2.13.61.
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eeeeeeee OH MY!! happy-face! 
Okay.......this is getting embarrassing 
*squeak!* 
hello, i'm retarded! 
you said giblets!!!!!!! 
