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Well, here's my day.
Or actually, the part I think someone might actually find interesting... So I'll start with my math class. There's this guy with a really cute neck in the class. I first started looking at his neck last fall, then he disappeared from the class for the spring and now he's back again  On tuesday I sat right behind him and almost ended up missing parts of what the... are they still teachers at university? I mean, in finnish they aren't, but what about english? Anyways, I almost missed parts of the lesson, since I was kinda staring at him... and then today I was a bit late, so I didn't really get to pick where I sat, so I couldn't sit behind him and accidently (honestly!...or not) drop my pen next to him. Oh well, maybe tomorrow. 
After my math class I went downtown and wandered around, looking for a birthday gift for a friend, which I ended up buying, but I'm not sure if it's that good of a gift. Anyway, after that I went to see a movie, since the movie theater had a special day, all movies $5 (well, 5 €, but I think 1€ still pretty much equals $1), so I went and saw Identity. Not really my kind of movie, but I'm not sorry for seeing it. After that it was time to head to the meeting of the gay student club of my uni. Actually, it was a joint meeting with the similar club from the other uni in town, so there was quite a bit more people there than normally. Nothing that spectacular at the meeting, apart from the cutest guy in "my" uni's club taking of his sweater and having a sleeveless shirt (possibly called tank top in english?) underneath it. God it took an effort not to stare. *wipes drool from his chin* Sadly, Mr. Cutie also mentioned that he's got a boyfriend now, another guy from "my" club. *sigh* Other than that, talked with "the new guy" (the only new member for the club so far this fall), we're both majoring in Computer Science and a few others had a laugh listening to us ("You know, now that MacOS is really an unix deep down, do you think it's possible to..." and on we went ) and just generally chatted with people and hanged out. Was cool, though I'm still kinda... unused to my reaction to the meetings, but read more of that in the next paragraph.
Yeah, about the club in general. I started going to the meetings last spring, January or February, don't remember anymore. I missed quite a few meetings during the spring, since I felt weird about going and didn't feel like I fit in and all that. Then for the summer I disappeared totally from the club, not that they had much anything during the summer. And now this fall, when the first meeting was I was really looking froward to it, and now again for this meeting. I guess I'm just starting to feel more comfortable with who and what i am, but... nothing's really happened during the summer, so i'm kinda surprised by my own reaction. Then again, I still don't really know how to think of myself as gay, I still feel I am just "me" more than "gay". And the people at the club, of course they're gay/bi/whatnot, but... They're just people and are cool to hang out with. I kinda don't know if being gay not feeling important is a good or a bad thing, I mean is it just me in denial or something or is it me getting more comfortable? Well, whatever it is, it's almost 1 AM here and I need to get to math class (in time hopefully) tomorrow morning, so I'll hand out free {{{hugs}}} to anyone who wants them and has managed to read this far and head to bed. G'night everyone!
Setras
That which is dreamed can never be lost, can never be undreamed.
-Master Li in Neil Gaiman's Sandman
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Registered: March 2003
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Can't quite do the dark place with people thing...
But i can relate about the meetings.... Kevin and I began last January going to PFLAG meetings and also a local Pride organization that meets for coffee every friday evening.
So far it has been alot of fun.... alot of new friends and it gives Kevy and I a chance to mix more with the community in general.
As far as how you feel about being gay.... thats only natural.... As you become more and more comfortable with yourself you tend to think of yourself as you the nice friendly person that happens to be gay rather than the gay person that is nice and friendly.
It is a subtle difference at first... but I am sure you understand what I am getting at.
Life is great for me... Most of the time... But then I meet people online... Very few are real friends... Many say they are but know nothing of what it means... Some say they are, but are so shallow...
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I have also found a guys neck appealing on more than one occasion. hehe
Marc is wise in his short reply. He doesn't seem to need alot of words to get his point accross.
BTW say hi to the other Kevin for me ;-D
Kevin
"Be excellent to each other, and, party on dudes"!
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That's great. I had a guy in my high school class with a great neck, but he had a great butt too, and back then tight jeans on guys were in fashion so I didn't stare at his *neck* most of the time if you know what I mean........... ;-D
Anyway, I really am glad you're getting settled in your student group, that's fantastic, and talking nerdy computer stuff with a guy is a good way to get to know each other better, and then maybe either of you ask like, 'wanna hang out a bit after uni?' or something and... Well, heh, I love to play matchmaking, but it's your life after all. Anyway, I'm glad, I really am.
Keep it up dude!
Hugs for you too.
-L
"But he that hath the steerage of my course,
direct my sail."
-William Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet, Act One, Scene IV
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Thanks, Setras! At long (long!) last I finally realize why I did so poorly in math class. I recall in particular the boy who sat in front of me in sophomore geometry class: he had the cutest neck (and everything else, for that matter)!
I hope things continue to go well for you, and that you get acquainted with more than just his neck. 
We do not remember days...we remember moments.
Cesare Pavese
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It does gradually begin to feel more natural being out and around other gay people the more you practice.
Sort of like what you say is happening with your father. A bit less weird each day...
"Always forgive your enemies...nothing annoys them quite so much." Oscar Wilde
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Hiya :> 
Drop the pen, wait for him to pick it up, stick out your hand and say "Setras". We gotta get this dude's name. 
) 
Still checking out "The Neck" I see...! 
I Sooooo agree with smith and Marc...! 
