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because in big, big tests, i get test anxiety and commonsense and everything i've learnt over X period of time goes out the window. tonight is the big 18 page one, plus i have to (no, want to) take the abbreviation test over, in medical terminology.
here is a cross-post from my livejournal (locked). i don't know why, i just ... feel very alone right now. i would like hugs because when i get this random my 50 percent rule (that some of you know about, if not i can explain when i have more time) goes right out the window.
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"2:46 pm - yet more nonsense to be weeded out of the el-jay later.
big big big final tonight. if i time this right, i should peak around 6:30 and be good to go, with the uh. caffeine. stuff. breathe breathe breathe. i just finished force feeding myself fat-free refried beans with salsa. maybe that will give me protien energy. this is the Big F'ing Final. also cross fingers that i find my anatomy prof's "mailbox" to deliver the homework i forgot was due yesterday when i skipped review. then, i have the 150 question anatomy final tomorrow and i am done.
also i finished my scarf. it's 21 rows long and awesome. i just have to put fringies on it and i don't think i'll get to that until tomorrow. sucks because it's freezing, freezing RAIN, but no snow. heathyr's fever finally broke and died and i'd like to not be sick again. my hairdye has faded about 30 percent already, but i have pictures that will be developed when i'm pretend-rich again. netzero is charging me 4 extra dollars than they should, but their phone number costs 2 bucks a minute so i can't figure this out. if i didn't hate AOL and it's drama so much, i'd almost go back. but it's been peaceful away from there. my period is screwed, again. it came for like a half of a day and went away, came again this morning, and is gone. probably the ED i keep pretending i'm "recovering" from. i think i'm going to get my tubal over break, but i don't know yet, because that'll interrupt the super workout regimen i have planned. sterilisation, or lose 15 more pounds by january 12? decisions, decisions.
time to dry my hair."
:-/
my void does not want.
-- 2.13.61.
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Take a couple deep breaths and relax. You'll do fine.
{{HUGS}}
Think good thoughts,
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Good luck. I bet you do great. Let us know when it's over 
{{hugs}} smith
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also thanks for kevin for calling accidentally during class, at which time everyone stared and i gave them the finger and they laughed and resumed chaos while we waited 3095834 years for the prof to get back to start the exam late!
she's going to email me my score on both the final and the abbreviation retake. i got a 103 (extra credit included) on last week's, but i rushed through this one because we started so late, and i was so frustrated just before hand that i erased skin off my knuckles to keep from screaming.
really, i just need to sleep. then i'll be good. tomorrow is the last day.
smiles for you all,
h.
my void does not want.
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I knew you could do it Heathyr!
Thousand congratulations!
You said when you'd die that you'd walk with me every day
And I'd start to cry and say please don't talk that way
With the blink of an eye the Lord came and asked you to meet
You went to a better place but He stole you away from me
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103, wow!
Simply put, you rule! Hope you're having a good night's sleep!
*Hugsss*
-L
"But he that hath the steerage of my course,
direct my sail."
-William Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet, Act One, Scene IV
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Heh-heh! Good luck heathyr! ;-D
They say you should know things by heart for exams to be easier.
Lots of sleep helps too.
Got my fingers crossed.
I know you'll do well. ;-D  
"The worst way of missing someone is to be sitting right next to them knowing you can't have them." To Stephen Tsang, wherever you are.
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i did, i did finally sleep, yes. just four hours, but after like however many equals almost two days, that felt like heaven. i'm still waiting for the professor to email me what i got on last night's exam, and what my ending grade was in her class ..... i haaaate waiting.
today is the anatomy one and the prof. is going to run our scan trons through right then and there, give us our grade, and kick us out of there. so no waiting there at least!
hugs & love for you!
h.
my void does not want.
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that's very true! do you know what's funny? for all that stress and loss of sleep over this eighteen page thing from last night?
i could not only type it all out right here and now, every last word and page, but i could also define it so it made sense to everyone. like reciting my birthday or the order of US presidents or any other number of things that have been consistently drilled. for all this teacher's disorganisation, she DOES have a die-hard method of teaching going on. i won't ever forget what "blepharoplasty" or "keratosclerosis" or (and say this one outloud ten times fast) "salpingooophorectomy" is. and i have all 200 abbreviations down...
i mean i carry on about this only because this whole "do good in school" thing is very new to me. i only wish i'd applied myself so hard in high school in things OTHER than just the violin and causing trouble. ::-)
my void does not want.
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In that case I wish for you to do super great, like I just know you can, and then have an awesome and totally relaxing holiday!
Maybe we'll even be able to chat again some day huh?
Cuddly hugs:
-L
"But he that hath the steerage of my course,
direct my sail."
-William Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet, Act One, Scene IV
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of course we will, silly boy. hopefully even tomorrow if i manage to snag you.
my void does not want.
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...Coz I'm sick as a dog and feeling awful. Hopefully I haven't got the flu, but it feels like I do. In any case be good, pretty girl.
Will have a shower and turn in early tonight, hope I will be well enough to keep an eye open for you online tomorrow.
*contagious hugs for you*
-L
"But he that hath the steerage of my course,
direct my sail."
-William Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet, Act One, Scene IV
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i'm sorry you're sick, sweet boy. i'd take care of you if i was there. in fact i wish i was there. anywhere but here. i hope your shower made you feel better and that rest might help, too.
orange juice mixed with garlic powder, or garlic pills. it'll make you feel better in 24 hours, i swear.
also i miss you.
love.
my void does not want.
-- 2.13.61.
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I'm crossing! (hard to type, hehe!) 
Wishing you luck 
Oh, you'll get your grades instantly! 
Lots of posts done today but I can't read them... 
