|
|
|
|
To-day was another day...
And I'm okey... 
I received a 35/30 on my Spanish Presentation.
"Cuando era nigno, vivía en Alemania. Cuando moví a California,
no trají muchas cosas conmigo, entonces, traigo hoy regalos de amigas koreanas. Aquí tengo dos bolsas suertes, una es ora, el otro es morada.
Aquí tengo stampos y monedas koreanas, y dos cartas."
I'm still really primitive with my Spanish. It was not bad though.
The next period, I watched Arnie's first State of the State Address, I was the star of the class, as usual. (I hate being so 'special' - I wish I were no more than the next.) At lunch, I had 2 coffees. My weakness, lol.
It was quiet. I finished my project on Japanese food with my partner. (Erin, a girl who works a lot with me in school.) We will sign-up for a presentation-date soon...
English I was a bit frustrated in... The teacher presumed to tell ME how to speak MY OWN language, German... Yeah, I admit that I do not speak it that well anymore... But I think if she tries to tell me what my mother says is wrong, and what every other German I know says, then she has a problem.
ALthough she is still pretty cool.
When I finally got home, I saw an e-mail from a friend of mine...
He said that he still loves me, he asked me to try to forgive him for his violations... I do not know what to do though, I know I'll never be happy with him, even less so without him... We were once young love.
But things happened, and now we are in a circle that leads to nowhere.
I guess it was not a bad day, but nothing special happened... But that is how it always is... Or maybe what is most special, I do not appreciate...
Maybe one or the other... Someone told me to-day how great I am... I am not though, I wish I were not so brilliant like everyone thinks I am...
I wish I would have come quietly, and left quietly... But I did not, and I do not. I change the status quo, at least for a little while...
And supposedly, I changed things a lot, but I do not see the difference arouunnd school...
You said when you'd die that you'd walk with me every day
And I'd start to cry and say please don't talk that way
With the blink of an eye the Lord came and asked you to meet
You went to a better place but He stole you away from me
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
It would seem you do not enjoy displaying sometimes superior knowledge, but I think most people would agree it does bring at least some satisfaction being able to tell a teacher she's wrong about something. So I don't think anyone would deny you feeling a bit of satisfaction there, bud.
Also, there's a difference between telling someone he's a great guy - which refers to said guy's personality and behavior - and telling him he's brilliant, which is more a talent/knowledge thing. Well, that's what I mean anyway, so if - theoretically - I were to tell you I think you're a great guy, you won't have to feel bad because you feel people think you're more brilliant than you think you are. 
It's a *compliment*, man! Take it in the spirit it was given, alright?
As would I do with an apology, though not knowing the back-history and circumstances of your relationship, it's of course very hard to say anything about what you should do. I tend to reason though, that if a person actually apologizes to me - which god(s) know don't happen very often - I want to believe the person means he/she's sorry about what happened, which means we can be friends again. And one can never have too many friends, IMO.
You decide of course, just telling the way I generally feel. Some things cannot be forgiven, ever, like what my "mother" did to me, but most everything else can. Fortunately! Coz we all need friends.
Take care now, okies?
*Hugs!*
-L
"But he that hath the steerage of my course,
direct my sail."
-William Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet, Act One, Scene IV
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
e
|
 |
On fire! |
Location: currently So Cal
Registered: May 2002
Messages: 1179
|
|
|
It's odd sometimes how things unfold, but last night I was talking to one of my classmates about how others perceive him. Actually he brought up the subject because he thinks others don't take him seriously. He wants to be percieved as better than the other students, or at least as good as the best ones. Just the opposite of you. His problem is that he also wants everyone to think he is a "fun guy" so he clowns around a lot. This causes people to overlook his talents.
Often we think we can be more popular if people perceive us as "normal" or "average." But it isn't necessarily so. You have a talent and obviously some people admire you and respect you for it. You may not want the attention, but don't let it get you down or cause you to make less use of your talents. Be you. You might not be entirely happy with what that gets you, but if you try to be something other than what you are, you'll not be happy at all.
BTW, the chef in me wants to hear more about your Japanese food project.
{{HUGS}}
Think good thoughts,
e
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
I wish people would take me seriously...
That's another problem I guess I have.
I wish people could take me seriously, but realise at the same time that I DO have a sense of humour.
And about the Japanese project...
We were to get into groups, and choose a country.
I chose Japan with the girl Erin, and the guy was useless, so he did not count. GRR. We had to do some country-research, get a place-setting,
usw. ANd some day, we'll cook in front of the class.
You said when you'd die that you'd walk with me every day
And I'd start to cry and say please don't talk that way
With the blink of an eye the Lord came and asked you to meet
You went to a better place but He stole you away from me
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
e
|
|
On fire! |
Location: currently So Cal
Registered: May 2002
Messages: 1179
|
|
|
Or more specifically a good night. It is almost as if someone in my class reads this MB. I got invited to go out with the guys for a beer last night.  Of course it would have been a total snub if I wasn't invited since the other guys who work at my table were discussing it while we worked, but it was nice anyways. I had a good time too. I got to know a couple of them a bit better and found out some things we have in common besides a love for cooking. It was a good time.
Class is going very well, though I'm getting sick of bread. I'm taking Baking this term and we have made two or three different kinds of bread every day this week. French baguettes, whole wheat dinner rolls, challah, brioche (yum!), pan de mie, potato focaccia, pretzels, bagels, and pitas with more to come next week. I've got so much leftover, that I'll be making bread pudding for dessert tonight with enough left over for tomorrow too.
I heard a very interesting rumor about supercutie Brandon. Apparently some of my classmates think he's gay. I overheard a conversation between two of them. I guess one of them had jokingly called Brandon gay and he became very flustered and embarrassed as though his secret had been discovered. He denied it, but his behavior left a lot of suspicion. I hope they don't start harrassing him about it. I don't want to cause him embarrassment by bringing it up, but I also don't want to tolerate people harrassing him about it whether it is or isn't true.
Think good thoughts,
e
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
e
|
|
On fire! |
Location: currently So Cal
Registered: May 2002
Messages: 1179
|
|
|
Wow, cooking in front of the class. That's cool. Any idea what you want to cook?
Getting people to take you seriously while having them realize you have a sense of humor is a balancing act. But if you dazzle them with your brilliance while in class, you shouldn't have a problem with being taken seriously even if you clown around a little bit. I have a tendency to become so serious while in class that people look at me funny if I joke around a little. I made a smart-alec comment to someone in class the other day and a girl who overheard it actually expressed surprise that I made a joke.
{{HUGS}}
Think good thoughts,
e
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Well...
The recipe had to be approved by the teacher,
so we decided to make a shrimp stir-fry.
I'll let Erin do the cooking, and do the assistant and prepping myself.
SOme people think I'm a show-hogger, okey, I am, but I want to save some face.
LOL. Anyway... We'll choose a date on Tuesday.
You said when you'd die that you'd walk with me every day
And I'd start to cry and say please don't talk that way
With the blink of an eye the Lord came and asked you to meet
You went to a better place but He stole you away from me
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
e
|
|
On fire! |
Location: currently So Cal
Registered: May 2002
Messages: 1179
|
|
|
Cool. Try and use some traditional Japanese ingredients so you can differentiate it from a Chinese stir fry. Perhaps by using some Japanese eggplant, shitake or enoki mushrooms, or teriyaki sauce (instead of plain soy sauce). Cut your veggies into a julienne (1/8 x 1/8 x 2-3 inch strips) and use some brightly colored veggies like a combination of red, yellow, and green peppers.
Think good thoughts,
e
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
My teacher will not let us deviate from the recipe.
But that's okey, it's a beginning foods class in HS.
To-night, my father will throw a big dinner.
Lobster, Scallops, and abalone. With spinach salad, and potato salad.
It will be a big dinner. As I may have said, some guests are coming over as well.
Anyway... About Brandon...
Why do people think it's so bloody interesting?
If people don't want to be de-closeted, why do it?
I feel bloody lucky, no one bothers me really. But another guy quit going to that school because he was so mis-treated. (Okey, he was REALLY annoying, and I threatened to shove my pen through his neck if he did not shut the bloody fuck up several dozen times) But, I have no clue... Why is it that I get away with shit like this?
You said when you'd die that you'd walk with me every day
And I'd start to cry and say please don't talk that way
With the blink of an eye the Lord came and asked you to meet
You went to a better place but He stole you away from me
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
e, I'm glad to hear more of your cooking class stuff (and I'm reading the thing you sent me too, just so you know. I hit a snag about half-way, but I'll get back to it asap).
One thing though, I just don't understand how you can get tired of bread! There's virtually nothing on this Earth yummier than freshly baked bread with a thick crunchy crust and soft, fluffy inside, baked with wheat to give it that yummy texture (it's the gluten that does that I hear), and fibre from whole-grain rye for example, linen seeds, oat flakes, sunflower seeds or such, and on top of that, sweetened with a fistful of sultana raisins, or preferably - heather honey!
MMMMMMMMMM! Bread... Yummy! :):)
Also, regarding the gay rumors... If people start talking, you just put your foot down. Firmly. Say you won't tolerate shit like that. Then, when you two have a moment alone, you can tell him you won't think any less of him even if the talk is true.
Then, if he hugs you, you can say everything's okay and then pat his bum. *giggle*
*Hugs YOU!*
-L
PS: Syytön - in case you ever get curious what a particular word is in Swedish - try this link, hehe: http://www-lexikon.nada.kth.se/skolverket/swe-eng.shtml
"But he that hath the steerage of my course,
direct my sail."
-William Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet, Act One, Scene IV
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Personally, I do not like the idea of putting people on the spot like that...
If he really is gay, and at the point he's at, I think the least thing he would want is that... But that is just my opinion... When I was still closeted, the least thing I wanted was someone to put me on the spot.
(It happened a few times, and I hated it) I would reccomand putting your foot down, but let him go to you.
You said when you'd die that you'd walk with me every day
And I'd start to cry and say please don't talk that way
With the blink of an eye the Lord came and asked you to meet
You went to a better place but He stole you away from me
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
e
|
|
On fire! |
Location: currently So Cal
Registered: May 2002
Messages: 1179
|
|
|
I didn't mean to hijack your thread either. I meant to start a new one, but I guess I clicked reply instead.
I agree, I don't think he'll appreciate being put on the spot. I won't ask, but I will stick up for him if I see or hear anyone harrassing him. The conversation I overheard didn't seem malicious, but one of the guys involved has a bit of a nasty streak so it could get that way. But for the most part, the people in our class get along so I'm not too worried.
Lenny, it's hard to get tired of bread, I know. But I have eaten almost nothing else all week. I've had it with various toppings for every meal and even for dessert. It's just getting to the point where I want to skip having bread for a day or two.
Think good thoughts,
e
|
|
|
|
|
Goto Forum:
|
] 
A Place of Safety
Search
Help
Register
Login
Home
Glad you're okay, buddy. 
Syytön, I don't wanna hijack your thread, but... 
