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Hey guys and gals!
Just checking in. I haven't been around a lot lately, and as I made a quick check of the posts around here, it looks like everyone seems really happy, and that's really awesome.
Leander, I'm so happy for you! You seem like you've been struggling a lot lately and you sound very happy and excited about your future. You really, really deserve it. Many hugs and I hope things go well with Shiloh.
smith, smith, smith, didja get my card?  It sounds like you've been through a lot lately but you're a strong kid and I know you can get through anything. Ya just gotta keep the faith.
e, my favorite chef, you sound like you had such a good time at cooking school! And working for Wolfgang Puck?! That is SO awesome. I bow to your greatness, oh high and exhaulted chef! That's just too cool.  )
And a big hi to all my loved ones -- Timmy, D'Art, Lenny, Brian, Ron, Saben, Andy, Steve, and anyone else I missed! I miss all of you so much.
So let's see if we can do some catching up...
Senior year is almost over, I can't believe it! I've been doing well, but it's a bit of a struggle, since my teachers just love to pile on the work. It's getting to the point where I'm almost apathetic to it all, y'know? I actually submitted a valedictorian speech the other day, so I'm keeping my fingers crossed that they'll choose me... There's only about a month left! That said, my senior prom was last night, and it was so awesome. It was on a cruise ship! It was a beautiful night for sailing and just tons of fun. (Haha, smith, there was a cruel twist in the "prom situation." I have to tell you soon, hehe.)
Conor's still being a major league pain in the ass. I really shouldn't care about him anymore, and I really don't, but since I have to see him everyday, it kinda pisses me off. It doesn't help that he gets very uncomfortable in my presence, and the fact that he's not very subtle about it. I mean, yeah, it's only been about 25 months since I've told him and I don't care that he's not talking to me at all. But it's difficult for him to stand in line near me without getting antsy. On the rare occasion that I talked to him within the past year, he hasn't looked at me while I talked to him or if he responded. I can't look in his general direction without him becoming uncomfortable, even though I'm looking at someone else that happens to be in his direction. I'm getting sick of it and it's getting to be childish.
I'm starting to become slightly more open about being outed by Conor, although I'm not outright saying it. I've recently acknowledged many times that there have been rumors about me, although I really don't get into specifics and I don't deny or confirm the rumors. I think I just wanna tell people, but I know it's in my best interest not to. I guess I'm just trying to be subtle about it.
My school's basketball team had a 31-1 record and we went to the state championship a few weeks ago. I really had an incredible time going to each and every one of the games and I'm sure not to forget it for a long, long time. Unfortunately, we lost in the championship game, which was tough, since we went undefeated for the entire season up to that point.
So, yeah, I guess that's everything important that's been happening lately. I just wanted to check in and let everyone know that I am alive and I'm doing fairly well. College is coming up pretty soon, so that should be mighty interesting, hehe. I'm already nicknaming it my "debutante ball," lol!
Hope all of you are doing well, and hopefully I'll be coming back more often. Toodles!
-Tom 
"Whatever is sought for can be caught, you know,
whatever is neglected slips away."
Oedipus Rex, lines 126-127
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thank you, tom.
i'm real sorry that things with your friend/ex-friend aren't going so hot; you'd think after that much time he'd kind of .. shape up and move on? but i AM happy for your upcoming graduation (and fingers crossed too, for your speech to be chosen!)
it's amazing how the teachers like to kill us all the closer the end comes; and lemme tell you, it doesn't get annnnny easier in college. i graduate this june and had to change hospital locale's for my externship, and so that's in a hiatus right now. meanwhile, the time ticks down and if i don't finish getting the req. hours in, then i get a "promissory note" diploma -- ie: the folder thing with a letter saying that i have graduated and will be certified when my hours are completed.
lame!!
try not to be TOO apathetic though--the end gets closer and closer, faster than you realise. :-*
-leander
my void does not want.
-- 2.13.61.
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Oh, that Conor needs a lesson...too bad ya can't go up to him every chance ya get and put your arm around his shoulders and whisper, "It's catching..."
Nah...not worth it of course...just my mood right now about the straight world, I guess...
"Always forgive your enemies...nothing annoys them quite so much." Oscar Wilde
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Steve
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Location: London, England
Registered: November 2006
Messages: 465
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Missed ya!
Good to hear things have been good for you. Please come back more often, it gets kind of dull without your glowing presence brightening stuff up, okay?
{{{hug}}}
See you soon - hopefully.
-L
"But he that hath the steerage of my course,
direct my sail."
-William Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet, Act One, Scene IV
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how many times I've wanted to mess with that kid's head. Sometimes I just want to do it soooo bad and I really just don't care what he thinks anymore, lol.
But I really sometimes want to know what's going on in that head of his. After 25 months, he still stresses over it and I wonder why. There's gotta be something going on in his head that he might be afraid to show. I wanted to talk to him one day about it, but I knew there's no way in hell he'd trust me anymore. Pity. His loss, I guess.
And David, how's Man? I hope you two lovebirds are doing well in Thailand. I miss talking to you and hearing about your escapades, hehe. ::-)
Big hugs to everybody.
-Tom
"Whatever is sought for can be caught, you know,
whatever is neglected slips away."
Oedipus Rex, lines 126-127
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Location: currently So Cal
Registered: May 2002
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Kinda wondered where you've been. Good to hear from you. Don't let Conor get to you. Stay above it. Hope that "cruel twist" in the prom wasn't too cruel.
Hope you tune in for the lastest in the cooking school stories. I've got another one that I'm going to write as soon as this is posted.
{{HUGS}}
Think good thoughts,
e
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timmy
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Has no life at all |
Location: UK, in Devon
Registered: February 2003
Messages: 13796
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All that mattered with Conor was closure. The thing you are doing is working hard to reopen it. tom, you have to take him at face value. If he said "no" then there was not and is not a chance. You have your closure.
Just tell him simply something like "I can't help it if I find you attracrtive. But when you said 'no' that meant 'no'. I don't expect us to be friends, but I don't want you to feel uncomfy either."
Don't mess with his head. That will only mess with yours.
Author of Queer Me! Halfway Between Flying and Crying - the true story of life for a gay boy in the Swinging Sixties in a British all male Public School
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Howdy hi Tom!
It has been far too long, indeed!
I didn't know you were in line for class valedictorian. That would be just about the most perfect way for your high school career to end (notice I said, "just about..."; but that's something else to hope for as well). Do keep us posted!
Congratulations on your basketball team's stellar season! I know losing the state championship game was quite a let-down; but the fact that the team was in the state final in the first place is quite the awesome accomplishment (especially when you consider that you come from a pretty large state and therefore had to defeat some pretty formidible competition to make it that far).
It's really sad that Conor is still behaving like that after all this time. He may still feel uncomfortable around you, but that's his problem. The important thing is that you're feeling more comfortable about yourself, and that's what matters most.
College will be something like a "debutante ball", for you and for your fellow freshmen. May you find among them the one for you (and, equally important, may he find you!).
We do not remember days...we remember moments.
Cesare Pavese
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