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timmy
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Has no life at all |
Location: UK, in Devon
Registered: February 2003
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I know as sure as I know that the sun will rise tomorrow that John (rememebr my obsession with John?) has no interest in me, and probably despises me and dislikes me.
So why do I keep having wonderful dreams where he is nice to me? He holds my hand and we walk and talk about nothing, as though we were long time lovers. And I wake up feeling a mixture of ecstasy and dejection.
Author of Queer Me! Halfway Between Flying and Crying - the true story of life for a gay boy in the Swinging Sixties in a British all male Public School
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Shawn
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Toe is in the water |
Registered: July 2004
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I doubt he hates you..I don't see how anyone could hate you.
{{Hugs you}}}
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timmy
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Has no life at all |
Location: UK, in Devon
Registered: February 2003
Messages: 13800
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Probably he doesn't hate me. I know I don't hate him.
I just wish the dreams could reflect reality, for reality will never reflect the dreams
Author of Queer Me! Halfway Between Flying and Crying - the true story of life for a gay boy in the Swinging Sixties in a British all male Public School
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marc
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Needs to get a life! |
Registered: March 2003
Messages: 4729
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Theres a reason why dreams are called dreams.
And I'll trade mine for yours anytime.....
Life is great for me... Most of the time... But then I meet people online... Very few are real friends... Many say they are but know nothing of what it means... Some say they are, but are so shallow...
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marc
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Needs to get a life! |
Registered: March 2003
Messages: 4729
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On second thought.....
No..... I wouldn't wish my dreams on my worse enemy......
Life is great for me... Most of the time... But then I meet people online... Very few are real friends... Many say they are but know nothing of what it means... Some say they are, but are so shallow...
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saben
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On fire! |
Registered: May 2003
Messages: 1537
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Not the religion/ mythology necessarily but rather just the philosophy. I have been trying to get a little more educated about it myself because it's exactly what I need. Especially now. Basically what it says is that your thoughts are not you and if you can distance your being from your thinking side and acknowledge your thoughts are often ridiculous and not at all accurate. Also part of the acknowledgement comes in the form of living in the present and realising that your mind focuses on the past and the future, neither of which really exist. There are things to gain experience from in the past and there are things to look forward to and plan for and work towards in the future. But the present should be an end unto itself, not merely a means to an end. Because the present exists, yesterday will never return and tomorrow will never come. I'm sure you know this, though, Timmy. It was just my own musings. Telling myself things that my head knows but that my heart needs to come to terms with.
Look at this tree. I cannot make it blossom when it suits me nor make it bear fruit before its time [...] No matter what you do, that seed will grow to be a peach tree. You may wish for an apple or an orange, but you will get a peach.
Master Oogway
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