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Dearest all,
just a mild update
been crying alot tonight
considering a dance on a knifeblade
i keep asking myself why i deal with my life
why i put up with the abuse
and honestly i have no idea im just stronger then the pain i guess.
but as for tony and i we've been copping a few feels of eachother
life is good
as for right now i am cold, and i guess i wont be here much longer
life throws curveballs sometimes
as always.
Jordan
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I hope things get better for you Jordan.
Hugs.^^
~Josh~
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Love who you want to.
~Josh~
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saben
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Registered: May 2003
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Tony deserves more than that. I know what it's like, I've been close to the edge. But there's always been someone. And if there's even one single person that you'd upset by dying it is not worth it. And on top of Tony there's me, and the rest of this forum. So don't be a nut.
You're strong enough to make it through this. When you do, you can move out with your bf, have your own place, have a whole bunch of gay friends and sip lattes while watching the sunset from your balcony.
Look at this tree. I cannot make it blossom when it suits me nor make it bear fruit before its time [...] No matter what you do, that seed will grow to be a peach tree. You may wish for an apple or an orange, but you will get a peach.
Master Oogway
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there right. i have not been on the board in some time but, i agree do do anything you cant take back. I guess you can say that y i am still here. my family is one big bunch of homophobes i have ever meet and they r always putting down gays. oh btw my mother now knows i am gay. and she will start the gay bashing event with the family. but the only thing that keeps me going is that one day i will meet the one 4 me.
Jason
P.S sorry if it does not make sence i am a little drunk and its been shitty couple of days as i am on vacation with the whole family, i mean the whole family, brother, sister, brothers kids, aunts, uncles, grandparents and so on.
and they r all homophobic to diff levels
[Updated on: Thu, 02 August 2007 04:43]
So say what you want
(You know I'm wasting all my time)
You've gotta mean it when you say what you want
(You're only safe when you're alone)
And everybody's on your mind
Saying anything to get you by
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ProfZodiac
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OK, since you're not on AIM, and I'll forget to say it otherwise, listen to me right now, Jason.
Stop drinking.
I've been drinking casually for a couple of years now, since I got to college. (Legally, for only a month, but who cares?) I set a couple of rules for myself when drinking that I think you should hear.
Number one - Never drink to forget. The expression "drowning your sorrows" is one hell of a way to get in trouble.
Number two - When you start to feel it, stop. You'll still feel it for a while, but stopping then ensures you won't do anything stupid by getting completely shitfaced.
Number three - Never drink more than one alone. If you're having a beer when you get back from work and you're checking your email, fine. But drinking more than that by yourself is dangerous, and can create a habit that leads to alcoholism. I know; I've checked.
You're a good kid and you don't need to do anything potentially destructive. Just keep the thought in your mind that you are better than whatever they throw at you.
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well tony just basically broke up with me
ouch
my world is falling apart i have one option left
{according to my editor Marc my end to the previous statement was a bit too dark... and so i have stricken it per his orders}
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I'm sorry Jordan. I hope you find someone who will love you for you.
Hugs.
~Josh~
21.
Love who you want to.
~Josh~
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saben
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Registered: May 2003
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*hugs*
These times are the hardest. Life is a journey, though. You need the courage to see where the path takes you. Giving up because it's hard now stops you from even knowing what will come later.
Look at this tree. I cannot make it blossom when it suits me nor make it bear fruit before its time [...] No matter what you do, that seed will grow to be a peach tree. You may wish for an apple or an orange, but you will get a peach.
Master Oogway
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Tony and I are back together
we spent a few hours just talking
and im in love with him.... i always have been always will be
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