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Hey everyone. Hi Marc. Hi Jordan.
How should i start this? Let's see. I've made some terrible mistakes in my life. Once you do something, you can't take it back. No amount of 'i love you's' and kisses will take away the pain of someone.
Unfortunately, that's not how life works.
Marc.
You surprise me. You still love me after all that I've put you through. Despite the fact that I've done some unforgivable things to you, and perhaps some of which, were intentional... You've got a big heart. A heart, which may or may not go to someone else. It all depends on me I guess.
I've been selfish, unkind, and downright rude to you. Perhaps, then love truly is a powerful thing.. I was trying to sleep while listening to sad music in my room. I cried, naturally.
Being that I watch the Dr. Phil show on a regular basis, there's something that's always in my head: 'you can't change what you don't acknowledge.' He says that all the time to whomever's on his show.
I know that I've hurt you, so very bad... You say I only hurt me, well that's not true. We're both a little broken right now.. I wish I could be the one to make you happy again, though, based on what's happened, perhaps I'm not the right one.. I do love you, and that's never going to change.
Jordan.
Hey bro. Gosh it's a quiet day so far. Marc says I need to stay away from you. I agree with that. I want to apoloogize to you. I've also hurt you as well.
Remember how lastnight, you said you wouldnt try to commit suicide again? You said, 'what am I to you.' Jordan, you are an important person in my life, as well as many others' lives. You just need to realize that you are special, kind, and talented.
When you were attempting to commit suicide lastnight, with the knife, I was so sacred. I tried to be calm through the whole thing, which I was, but I was really scared. You have a lot to live for. Things will get better. They always do. So, cheer up, okay?
Guess I'm done with this post everyone. I hope you all have a great day. I'll write a poem up here later.
Loves you all.
~Josh~
21.
Love who you want to.
~Josh~
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