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This is to the person you wish you were with all the time. The person you can't stop thinking about. The person you dream about, the person who you've given your heart. To the person who doesn't know your name, who you're so desperately in love with. To the person who you've seen in your dreams, who means everything in the world to you.
Keep me close, keep me safe, take care of me everyday. Don't ever hurt me, don't crush me like a twig.
And if you must, hurt me until you're satisfied, until your pain melts away and you start to feel the sensation of peace. Whatever that peace is, may you be blessed with it. You only hurt me cause you love me, right?
Call me what you like, I'll always love you, or is that what I only tell myself when you're beating me like a child? Yet, in spite of it all, when I look in your eyes, I see not an abuser, or a bully, I can still see the person I love, the person who protects me. That is why I stay with you. If not for you or our kids, I may leave, yet, I can't, I'm bound to you by invisible chains which I cannot see.
I am merely, a plaything for you, just a doll you toss around to get me -into the mood.- Am I really that insignificant to you? I'd leave if I could, but as I've said, I cannot, for I am bound to you by the seal of our lips.
When I first felt that sweet kiss you gave me, I was enchanted, and wrapped in your love. But after all, I'm just a woman, what more is there for me, but to serve you, and give you my everything? Is this okay, this kind of relationship? I know not, for I am naive, if only just a little, wrapped around your finger with all the control that you submit me to. It's blackmail I know, but I can't help it. I've gone in too deep to turn back now.
I will love you until I die, that's the pledge I made to you when we got married, even at such a young age. Don't hurt me too much. I may leave a scar...
Love me, or hate me, I'm yours...
~Josh~
This was written cause I'm a little down right now. I wrote it from a woman's perspective, though I don't claim to know any of it. I'm a guy anyway. I just think about a lot of things. Forgive me if I've said anything wrong in this entry.
~Josh~
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Love who you want to.
~Josh~
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Dear Josh,
I find it hard to separate the make believe from what you are really saying when you put yourself into a woman's role. My guesses may be badly wrong.
Are you in love with someone and think it is unrequited? Shouldn't you talk to whoever and try to resolve things between you a bit?
I believe that if there is no reciprocal love (or at least strong liking) then the relationship can't go far. It would be a very bad plan to live your life worshipping someone from afar. Get to know them better and reach some understanding or full-blown rejection. At least then you can get over it and find someone else.
In the gay couple I know who have been longest together (I think it must be fifty years!) the younger one (only by two or three years) strayed and was tempted by other lovers and I think this happened several times. The elder made huge efforts to win him back - for example seducing the other lover so that he could diss him from knowledge. At the time I was amazed and full of admiration that anyone could do such things. But they worked: the pair are still together.
Pledges can be broken; marriages can end in divorce. I don't think either partner ought to spoil the rest of their life by staying in mourning.
Love,
Anthony
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thank you josh...
i was on edge today and that brought me back to perspective thanks
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You're welcome Jordan.
~Josh~
21.
Love who you want to.
~Josh~
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Hi Anthony.
To answer your first question, no, I'm not in love with anyone. When I wrote this, I was feeling down, and started thinking. When I initially wrote this, at first it was going to be a beautiful poem, so I thought. But then I lost track of the thoughts I had, and wrote it as if I were a woman who was in pain. I may have been feeling this way, due to the fact that I watched something that made me sad on TV.
I tried to put myself in the shoes of someone who had been abused and controlled by her husband. And thus, came the words that I wrote. The woman I was trying to portray, isn't real. That's the first thing. Second thing is, the woman who I was portraying had been subjected to years of physical abuse by her husband, so she felt that it was natural to be abused, as if it was a form of love.
I hope this helps in explaining things and answering your questions.
~Josh~
21.
Love who you want to.
~Josh~
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Dear Josh,
Thank you. And yes, I do think that imagining yourself in someone elses position is a good way to begin to understand how they are.
But it is so very difficult! I don't remember anyone being even nasty to me during my childhood. Putting myself in the position of someone who was abused is really hard - and how do I know when I have succeeded? Maybe I always fail!
I think the stories help. They are written by people with all sorts of experience and you can see how they express their feelings about those experiences.
Love,
Anthony
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