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Confusion... by ~Josh~ [message #50265]

Thu, 01 May 2008 02:26

Josh

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Registered: April 2006
Messages: 1012

Before you go to bed tonight, stop and think about your day. What was it like? What were the smells you took in? Did you lose yourself in the momentary sense of wonder? Did apparently nothing make sense?
Did you lose your sense of self? Has the doubt of past years settled in like a neighbor? Restriction. If you insist on caressing this 'perfect skin' of mine, take your best shot before I go on my way. Does the
adventure draw you into me, or am I just another prize with no meaning but a rag doll. Stare your eyes in another direction. You know it's true. I've known about all the others as well. I was not the first, though
I doubt I'd be the last. Just a piece of 'fresh meat' for your lips to taste and take in. Yet in my confusion, would I ask for it, or would I be too hard to handle? Perhaps the rape drug will kick in now, as you can
do what you please, what you 'want' and heart desires. And then you'll leave me like a doll, by the side of the road. Confessions of a lover are too much. We are not lovers or one-timers. Not even friends,as I
don't know your name. In a way though I deny it, I have asked. Not with words, but with the actions. The gestures, the non-stop flirting, which invited you into my pants for a night. How was I like any other?
So give me the cold shoulder now as I'll be on my way. It will be a rainy night, and I shall sit, rain on my head, with no recollection of the night before. Was it my innocence you took? Hardly. I was not innocent.
Merely a thing, wanting value and recognition. The simplicities of our world are too obvious. We dive ourselves into a world of pain to enjoy how we can hurt. Does that make you smile?
Spread my heart amoug your wall to remember me..

~End~

21.

Love who you want to.

~Josh~

Re: Confusion... by ~Josh~ [message #50271 is a reply to message #50265]

Thu, 01 May 2008 13:58

acam

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Location: UK
Registered: July 2007
Messages: 1849

Dear Josh,

Am I reading this right? Are you writing to someone you recently had sex with? It doesn't sound to me as though they were satisfactory! If you were writing to a 'friend' then I think maybe you need to choose your friends better.

But I have done that too and felt used as you do. I really needed to find a way out of that rut so that I didn't ever suffer that again.

Can you? Do you know what you would have to do? Have you the self-control needed?

The hurt sounds almost unbearable. Can I help? My email is in my profile.

Love.
Anthony

Re: Confusion... by ~Josh~ [message #50272 is a reply to message #50265]

Thu, 01 May 2008 16:58

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Thu, 01 May 2008 19:08

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