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Location: UK, West of London in Ber...
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I had something pointed out to me last night by someone who wants to stay anonymous, but who has been helping me in so many ways to see how backward looking my life has been since I was 13 years old.
"You no longer mention a certain person," he said, in conversation. "When I met you first, my heart broke for your sadness, now I see the start of joy." I have paraphrased it a little. If he should ever see this he will probably not recognise his own words. Even so, that is what I heard from what he said, among other messages he was giving me.
I thought hard. We talked then, for a few moments, about the obsession I had for all those years, about how it was now clearly over. We did not talk about the certain person, except as the fact that he had allowed me to feel, yet stifled the feleings as well. And we spoke of the fact that I now dislike the man intensely. Note this is separate from hate, which is an active emotion. "Dislike" is a passive emotion, only conjured up by references to the perosn concerned.
Losing the obsession was one thing, and quite an event, though it was in itself not a revelation but a dawning realisation. Starting to look forward instead of backwards is another such amazing event, though it arrived gradually too.
With the help of my friends, of my wife, of "my" therapist, and of the person who showed me this last night I am becoming at peace with my demons and with myself.
I am becoming happy.
It is a new experience for me. It is even a little frightening. And it is good.
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Registered: November 2002
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It will get better 
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Registered: March 2012
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very kewl for you Tim. hopefully i'll be at that point some day soon, but i know i still have some rough days ahead of me.
peace
tim...of USA
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tim
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Really getting into it |
Location: UK, West of London in Ber...
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Is to prove it can go right, and also to show the real angusih on the way.
It will go right for you, given a determination to achieve freedom, and a willingness to allow oyurself to be happy.
It has been very hard to do, but is 100% worthwhile.
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Tim,
You help others all the time without even knowing it. To know that you are getting a gift you help to give others ..... all I can say is ... well I can't think of the words right now. But it makes me happy too. Good for you!
"Be excellent to each other, and, party on dudes"!
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...Just wanted to say again how happy I am for you.
It's good to talk!
Wanted to mention this as a tribute to your fantastic place of safety...!
You know I'm not very good at this sort of stuff, but *hugs* anyway! 
-Lenny
(Oops! Time for me to re-login to the board again I see!)
"But he that hath the steerage of my course,
direct my sail."
-William Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet, Act One, Scene IV
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