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Howdy All,
Hope that you are all keeping well  I've chosen to share this with you all as I feel that it may be a turning point in my life.
I'm still not 100% sure as to which turn it is but I'm sure that once the proverbial fog clears and I can see the sky again a better and more clear evaluation I will be able to make.
I have felt so lost, confused and alone for so long now that I fear starting from scratch is my only hope but I guess the silver lining to that cloud is that I still have hope however little and hidden away it may be.
The Fight...
If only you knew how much it hurt,
Lying here face down in the dirt.
Unable to move or breathe or cry,
And barely even able to die.
I've often asked why did it happen to me,
But clear as day the 'why' I can now see.
I allowed it to happen and for you to take hold,
I allowed it all and now I feel cold.
Chilled to my core and my fire extinguished,
The lust for life I have now relinquished.
No sparkle no lust no need to go on,
And no charming thoughts since you've been gone.
I don't want your pity and I don't want your shame,
I just want you to stop this silly little game.
I can't open my mouth but I want you to know,
No matter the cost I must go on with the show.
The final curtain call my last night on stage,
The choice is made I'm no longer your Page.
It is going to be hard to do what is right,
But I am going to try with every ounce of my might.
Every day is a fight a head full of strife,
Every day is a fight and a waste of a life.
Every day is a fight the war's just begun,
Every day is a fight now that the fat-lady's sung.
By : Michael-Kent Dobison
"And so the lion fell in love with the Lamb"
"What a stupid Lamb"
"What a sick, masochistic lion"
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Macky
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Location: USA
Registered: November 2008
Messages: 973
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I hope that the turning point you've reached is one where you can let go, Michael.
I spent 2 years in morning when I realized the futility of my first love. I was lucky, I think Timmy suffered much longer letting his go.
Anyway, one day I awoke as from a 2 year dream. I realized that the love had gone. It died, went away, and ceased to exist. The realization took my breath away. I never thought it could die. It changed my life when it died. For the better. And it gave me a lesson for the rest of my life.ie..without constant nourishment, love starves to death. The 2 have to nourish each other,s love or it dies. Thank god it does die, when one or both partners fail to nourish the other. But when it's mutual, then there's nothing any better.
Good luck.
Max
Behold, how good and how pleasant it is
For brothers to dwell together in unity!
Ps 133:1 NASB
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Aussie
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Registered: August 2006
Messages: 475
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G'day Mike
Sorry to see this poem seems to show you have reached a low point in your life, however you have a strong character and will overcome all of this. Get up and dust yourself off and look to the future. I am sure there are good things in store for you. I just re read your poem "The way you left" and it shows me you can do it.
In a different way I too lay face down in the dirt and have had quite a fight on my hands. But I am getting there.
A big hug to you
Aussie
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