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tim...of usa
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Location: buffalo, new york...USA
Registered: July 2002
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i was chatting with a friend this morning and he got me to thinking, so i went back to the MB and started re reading this whole page of posts.
one thing jumped out at me and that is WALLS.... a lot of the posts have that common idea running through them. walls of lonely walls of misunderstanding walls of dispare so many kinds of walls.
marc....relationships...walls that keep us from allowing some one in to our lives..posted oct 27
timmy...I have a new friend who is shy....walls of fear...oct 27
shadow warrior....love and hate....walls that hold us together or apart...oct 26
timmy..progress in corp USA....walls of discrimination....oct 29
setras....i could ues some help....walls of fear and helplessness....oct 30
Warren C.E. austin...at what cost do we pay for friendship...again walls of fear (or rejection in this case)...nov 1
lenny...(welcome home)..i once wrote about a boy walking through a rain storm....big thick wall of lonly and fear...nov 2
ashley...florida can be lonely....hey the title says it all...now 2
why do i point out all these posts?...well i feel like we have talked around walls long enough lets tear some of em down.
over the years i have built some very big very strong very think walls around my self, i am a coward i hide from the world behind my walls. i say that my walls are here to protect me but what they do is keep me from being open honest and allowing others in to my world. i dont know how to tear down my walls and to be honest it scare the helll out of me to think that i may have to deal with the world out there. yup the big bad retired marine is scared. why i have no clue as to that either.
but you know what?.....i dont care anymore because i have been lonly scared and empty for far far to long...time to change that.
i still have no clue as to what to do next or even what to do first but i know that the wisdom of this MB and the voices of my family will speak to my head and heart and set me on the right path. ill do the work i just got to know what to do first. god that sounds so stupid comming from a 39 year old guy asking others ...hey how do you live a happy life? but thats what i am asking
please help me tear down my walls!!!!!!!
i may get bitchy and get stuborn at times but i feel its is time for a change.
peace
tim...of USA
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If offer stands, ya know what ya gotta do!
Willing to pay the price? 
"But he that hath the steerage of my course,
direct my sail."
-William Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet, Act One, Scene IV
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warren c. e. austin
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Location: Toronto, Ontario, CANADA
Registered: February 2003
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... it is good that you are coming to this realization, even if at such a late stage in your development, and determination of who "Tim of USA®" actually is. You must clearly like yourself before others will going to attempt to do likewise.
You have taken a very large step in the right direction in your having initiated this thread, and the openess expressed in having revealed for us your own human condition.
Your friends will, and probably do, "love you", and I'm not merely referring to those of us here on-line, but those closest to you in the real world too. Unfortunately the strictures judged to be necessary in your "macho" environment don't allow for expressions of this type of sentiment, as a consequence they will often go unsaid. Those of the many, either real or on-line, you number amongst your friends "who do", need to be identified, but you alone will have to do that. It's a defined imperative of your ingrained nature - nothing will ever mitigate that. There will be those who are just awaiting your having taken that step too, for them allow that love to more fully foster the development and necessary growth for it to fully blossom.
Warren C. E. Austin
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Please send me an e-mail when you get a chance.
Thanks,
Kevin
"Be excellent to each other, and, party on dudes"!
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mt
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Registered: November 2002
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It'll be the first step in tearing down your walls.
deep_love_seeker@yahoo.com
Luv
MT
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