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Sorry I haven't been on for a while. I have been busy having a hectic social life, and drinking like a fish. Which has so totally taken its toll. I feel rough. Hehehe, basically had a very drunken weekend, with friends, at various different house parties. More to come, I fear, as it is Christmas soon...! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Detox needed.
Anyway, I just wanted to say. Last Monday I was so very happy. I thought that the following Saturday (last Saturday) I would be 'looking after' my brother and his friends. One of which being Chester. Unfortunately it turned out that they stayed at another house, and I was to go to a party (somewhere else that evening). I went to pick my brother up in the morning, and Chester was there. I walked in the room, and chatted, and sat on the sofa. Chester then held my arm, and inspected I bracelet I got from a friend whom had recently returned from Thailand. He was holding my arm, and said to me "Why didn't you come last night...?" In such an upset way. It was difficult for me to answer, because I would have almost come to tears if I was being truthful.. I had wanted to be with him, I was so overjoyed at the beginning of the week, but it all changed. And seemed impossible for a 20 year old person to stay at a 15 year old's house. The reason is more complicated than this, but I cannot be bothered to explain at the moment.
He is so gorgeous, and so loving of me, it is dreadful. I was sat on the sofa, we were watching the "Count of Monte Cristo" on video (at 9 am), and I just sat watching him, he was so cute, holding one hand to his mouth, with the other. Totally absorbed with what was happening in the film. Mesmerised. It was amazing, his eyes and everything. For that whole day, AND today, I have felt sick. Sick with the feeling of love. Total obsession with this guy, who is so amazing, I cannot explain.
It drives me crazy, I have to think of the most extraordinary excuses to be able to text him on my mobile phone. I want to see him so much, but the only legitimate reason, is for our families to meet up or something, which at best, happens every 3 weeks or so. AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
Anyway, I just needed to vent this frustration, and insanity of mine.
Have a great night everyone.
Dan.
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Hey Dan! Sheesh, I hope everybody else said "Hi" already in private...
You sound frustrated indeed, dude... The one thing that further aging helps with is that the 5 years difference between you will fade in importance the older you become! My partner is 18 years younger than I am, which would have been impossible when we were both "too young" so to speak.
But now, with me at 50 and Man at 32, we're just a couple of Old Geezers. Christmas is when we celebrate our anniversary. This will make 10 years. Imagine, a whole decade without having had to date! Gotta love it, right?
And for those of you counting down with me, only 10 days until I go to be with him for the Holidays! YAAAAY!
"Always forgive your enemies...nothing annoys them quite so much." Oscar Wilde
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Darren
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Well, cheeky, now I have not been called that for some time. Are you going to come a ruffle my hair too. Well you won't reach, as I am almost 2 m.
Thank's for the update. Getting obsessed over a 15 yr old is not a good thing. The problem with obsessions is that your eyes are closed for that possible "Mr. Right" that may come along--just in case the object of your affection does not turn out to be the right now (which is usually the case). No reason you can't be nice to Chester though, and in a couple of yrs he will be 17 and you will be 22. That's a lot more tolerable. In any event, you may be able to help him with his own sexuality along the way.
Regardless, I hope that you can make it to the new year without liver cirrhosis. Now if you could just end up in someone else's bed some morning after....
Hugs,
Darren
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dan
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Hey all. Thanks for your responses, I wasn't really asking for any I guess. That little outburst, was a stream of stuff straight from my mind. I guess it is like saying it outloud or telling someone, it helps a lot.
Anyway, after I wrote that last night, I got two text messages from Chester. Hehehe, he is so cute, they are as follows:
- I asked him if he wanted a thai bracelet like mine, as he examined it the day before - he answered with:
"yes please, dan the man, how much are they? you look pretty wasted on sunday ha ha, you should have come lots, your trendy sex puppet - the randy lover, night night xxxx"
- Yes, he does have quite an active imagination. I then asked him if he wanted it for free, which he responded:
"Make me pay, well it is christmas, good night, xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx lov chezzie"
Hehehehe, it was quite nice getting those messages.
Anyway, must dash, gotta get something to eat..!
PS, what the hell is a "trendy sex puppet"?!
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God, to have a gorgeous fifteen-y/o pining (apparantly) for you... Well, let's just say you COULD be doing a lot worse! 
Take him out and go see a movie together sometime whydoncha?
Have fun, take care!
-L
"But he that hath the steerage of my course,
direct my sail."
-William Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet, Act One, Scene IV
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stephen
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In my day a "trendy sex puppet" would be considered as Alan Tracy who piloted Thunderbird 3! By the way, Dan, is that your pic in the "irregulars"? Add some strings - need I say more?
Stephen
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dan
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Did anyone watch it this evening. It just finished. I was on it! WOOO!!! My very first TV appearance. Well, wasn't much of an appearance, I was there sitting at a meal, which was fun.
Anyway, I think Chester meant he was my trendy sex puppet. He is such a sweetie. My brother came home from school a month ago, and said to me "Chester is so weird, he was saying that he loves you"...! So read into that what you will.
Gotta go. Hehehe, one of my friends just phoned to tell me they saw me on the program! I AM FAMOUS! (not). heheh
Night all.
DAn.
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timmy
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Location: UK, in Devon
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Now, this is wasted on non Brits
Dan, think of Sooty.
Now, YOU are Sooty.
Soft and fluffy with a hand up inside (If you ask Chester nicely)
Author of Queer Me! Halfway Between Flying and Crying - the true story of life for a gay boy in the Swinging Sixties in a British all male Public School
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smith = smith Oliver, Mr. TV chef? Let me ask how you ended up there? He's actually rather cute! (Though married to a GIRL, baaahhhh! )
Besides, Chester doesn't sound weird. He sounds absolutely wonderful. Do take him to the movies or something...
-L
"But he that hath the steerage of my course,
direct my sail."
-William Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet, Act One, Scene IV
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No Message Body
"Whatever is sought for can be caught, you know,
whatever is neglected slips away."
Oedipus Rex, lines 126-127
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Why didn't someone tell me? It would have revolutionised my childhood perception of self! LOL
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Darren
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Hi Dan,
Chester is in love with you (as you probably know). I can only imagine how much semen is splattered on his walls caused by thinking of you. He wants you and you just need to figure out what to do. I think talking to him might be a good idea.
He is not being "weird" either. If you were a girl this infatuation would be totally acceptable.
Cheers,
Darren
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dan
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Am having a 'text' conversation with him at the moment...! This is soo ooooo oooooooo cool. He said:
"I am ok, doing coursework that has to be in tomorrow morning, it sucks, how you? text back, chezzie xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx"
It is SOO COOL!!! WOWOWOWOWOOW. He is so yummy. THough I will have to wait a few years to even talk to him about stuff I suppose. He is GORGEOUS. More so than Pip who hasn't communicated with me for an absolute age.
Anyway, I will keep up this convo with him, and write in a while with the results.
GOod night all.
And Tim, that was SOOOO rude. Hahahha
Dan.
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timmy
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Jeez how many guys send you kisses who are str8?
Author of Queer Me! Halfway Between Flying and Crying - the true story of life for a gay boy in the Swinging Sixties in a British all male Public School
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dan
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"Life sucks, not enough hours in a day... Not online, just the old pen and paper. Thanks for using you for the bracelet. Love you, chezziekins xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx"
CHEZZIEKINS?!!?!?!?!?!?!?!!!!!!
Jeez.
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dan
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PS, I responded with:
"How do you manage to fit in so many xxx's?? What time do you go to sleep??? How is Sofia??? I thought you were mine, bastard."
He has this second responded with:
"Go to insert word and type them in once and save it. I into sleep when my work is finished. I think sodfia is really fit but I do not fancy her, love you sexy boy"
Hmmm, how should I respond...!?!?!?!?!
Dan.
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timmy
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text: "Chezzie, if you are serious we should talk. Please may I call you? Love dan xxxxxxxxxxxxx"
Then call.
15 KNOWS what he wants. BUT is not legal. So deep care for him is required. And restraint. But take his lead.
Author of Queer Me! Halfway Between Flying and Crying - the true story of life for a gay boy in the Swinging Sixties in a British all male Public School
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By the way, what IS legal in the UK?
"Always forgive your enemies...nothing annoys them quite so much." Oscar Wilde
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timmy
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in Northern Ireland where it is 17
This is for all sexual acts.
Oddly it is STILL illegal in the UK to ASK a guy for a date if sex is likely to be involved!
Author of Queer Me! Halfway Between Flying and Crying - the true story of life for a gay boy in the Swinging Sixties in a British all male Public School
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Chester obviously has the hots for you in a big way... Cool! You lucky s.o.b! 
Follow his lead, and make sure you take care. You'll do fine. Keep us informed. Don't let this gem slip out of your grasp.
-L
"But he that hath the steerage of my course,
direct my sail."
-William Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet, Act One, Scene IV
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dan
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Oh well, I guess it would probably happen.
After a serious texting session last night with dear old Chester... I kind of stumbled across some minor details.
Nearing the end of our conversation, I asked him:
"So, who DO you fancy?" - I guess I was getting caught up, in the whole heat of things...
ANSWER:
"Your mum? Santa Claus? No - Hetty, you fool. I AM going out
with her! sorry next time"
Hmmm, bugger.
Well, anyway, better be off. Have a good night all.
DAn.
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I suppose 'Shucks!' seems like a good expression right now. 
-L
PS: there's still Pip I suppose, IF you can ever get hold of him... Timmy told me he thinks he fancies you but has given up.
"But he that hath the steerage of my course,
direct my sail."
-William Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet, Act One, Scene IV
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Darren
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Hi Dan,
I must admit that I was captivated by your text messages. I missed it while it was happening, but it was cool even after the fact. You put him up against the wall (are you gay?) and he did not have the strength to admit it (like most of us at his age). Don't give up yet, even though he certainly is making life complicated for you. If you want to make it easy for yourself, tell him that you are gay. I am not sure you can live with the repercussion of doing so. It would have been too scary for me at your age.
In any event, don't stop flirting! and tell us how it goes.
Darren
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dan
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I sincerely don't intend on giving up yet. I am going to pursue this, and since I am seeing Chester this Sunday, that should be quite cool. Oh, and also I am going Skiing with him in February, which should be good. I just wish my brother would invite him over for a sleep-over, which would be cool. Might be with him New Years eve. Although, lots of friends want to have a house-party, so am not sure how to wriggle out of that one...!
Anyway, must dash. We are (apparently) getting our Christmas tree early (8am) tomorrow morning. My father wakes at like 6am, and gets rather impatient! He is soo strange. Oh well. Looks like a long weekend of playing happy-families, and trying to get along.
Ta ta.
Dan.
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Hey Dan! I'm really happy that you aren't giving up on him! It sounds like you and he will have plenty of opportunity to figure out the chemistry between you. Yay for that!
When's his 16th birthday, anyhow? hehehe
"Always forgive your enemies...nothing annoys them quite so much." Oscar Wilde
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dan
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Well, UNFORTUNATELY I didn't see Chester on Sunday, the situation was out of my control. Which was a shame. Although I think I will see him next sunday, which should be funky. I don't know how to go about getting my brother to invite him over. He is so reticent to do anything I suggest, and I don't want to appear to be too over-keen on getting chester over. But you know how it is, I have this ache inside of me that is only vanquished with the presence of Chester. I have it sooooo bad.
I can't wait for the skiing trip in February though. 4 familes are staying at my cousins chalet in the Alps, and we are going to be there for a week, so that will be SOOO good, with Chester. Fun fun fun!!!
I must be off. I am having a VERY large night tomorrow night (tuesday), which should be an absolute laugh. I am not sure if I told you, (or let alone, whether I was here) last year about the Christmas party at Babington. Well there is a veeeeery gay guy called Jae who is quite old, but a huge laugh. He is the musical director for all the top london musicals. Last time there was a whole group of us in his 'apartment' there, and it was too amusing to explain. But I do hope it is as fun this year.
I was so hungover in the morning, I was sick!!! And I am rarely sick from alcohol. Oh well.
ttfn.
Dan.
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