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How do I get over him? Yes, that him that I've been talking about for nearly a year now. And even though I told him my true feelings and he rejected me 10 1/2 months ago, my heart still breaks. We haven't even had a conversation since December, but he's always there. It kills me every time.
I saw his name on my school's website today, and I broke out into a sweat. (It was pretty hot in the computer lab, too, but still.) Even seeing his name in writing kills me.
He's back on my bus again this year, and today, I tensed up. Nervous, not speaking to him, hiding in my shell, breaking up on the inside. I turn to talk to one of his friends sitting near him, and he turns away from me, towards the window. When I got home, the phone rang. I thought, "Oh my God, what if it's him?!" What a fool I am.
I just can't stop thinking about him.
The 3 months of summer vacation where I didn't even see him once, I still thought about him frequently. Why am I stuck in the past? Why can't I get over him?
More importantly, how do I get over him? I know it's a cruel question, but is there any way?
Funny, I've been at this MB for a year now. In my first post, I asked how to tell if he was gay or not. Now, I'm asking how to get over him.
-Tom :-[
"Whatever is sought for can be caught, you know,
whatever is neglected slips away."
Oedipus Rex, lines 126-127
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