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Hey Timmy!
It's been a while.
Well, something just came to my mind recently and since then, I couldn't stop thinking about it. I hope you won't mind me asking but...
How did you do it?
You know... live a normal life?
I mean, you're married, and you have a son.
Honestly, that's the kind of life I want for myself too.
You know... just be... normal- like the others.
The thing that scares me is that... no matter how hard I tried...
I can't get myself to like girls.
I mean, yeah- sure- I have a lot of friends who happen to be girls but...
they're just not the same. I don't... get attracted to them the way I do with boys. Believe me, I've tried as much to be normal by having a girl friend but... it just didn't work. I broke up with my girl friend before 'cause I felt guilty- that I didn't love or like her as much as she did with me. And it really felt like... I was lying to myself.
I just... can't seem to understand the way my mind works.
I mean, I've asked myself many times, "WHY THE HECK DO I LIKE BOYS AND NOT GIRLS?!!!!!!!!" "WHAT DO I SEE IN BOYS THAT I DON'T SEE IN GIRLS???!!!" I gave up of course. It just drove me insane.  Darn, had I been... a normal boy I wouldn't... argh! I can't even explain it. I just wanna be normal.
It's just that... me--- getting married--- with a girl and having kids of my own is just... sooooo out of the picture.
I'm kind of scared of my future.
I don't know exactly how I'll end up.
Well, there.
Sorry for all the angst. ^^:-X
Just couldn't help it.
Had to let that out. )
"The worst way of missing someone is to be sitting right next to them knowing you can't have them." To Stephen Tsang, wherever you are.
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Timmy, I have a question... 
