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TygerBoiSammy
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Registered: January 1970
Messages: 57
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I don't know a lot of you here. But I've been so blessed by all of you. I don't know the stuff that goes on between people and like the turf wars and arguments and more heated discussions, as my Dad calls them. But I do know that indirectly I started some bad stuff.
So without knowing anythings that went on in the past, or even asking people to look into the past for reasons and angers and stuff, I just ask that no one fight over something that happened because i got worse.
I don't know who this Robert Bryce is. I'm not sure what happened before and i don't want to know. It's not a matter that I should stick my nose in. I don't know why Marc feels so left out or hurt or ignored by others. Robby says that Marc's not only someone that thinks outside the box but that he often has stuff to say that not all of us want to hear but should listen too cause he's seen the dark, nasty side of life. He's seen it and come out of it and cares enough about everyone to give fair warning. Robby's taught me a lot since he started being my teacher. One of the best things he taught me was that we got to listen to the minority, even if you don't agree, cause they probly got something important to say. Ignoring someone who you don't agree with don't make you right.
Marc, like I said, I don't know you. And Robby only told me that you've had it rough, but you came out shiny. He said you still got lots to teach people. He said that if they let the real meaning slip past the words sometimes, they might be able to see a little differnently. And if we get so big for our britches that we can't make room to learn, then we're truely deserving of whatever bad stuff may happen from not opening our minds. I thought opening minds was a lot of what Tim's site and all the stories and posts and info and stuff was about?
Robby says sometimes we forget. I know I do. Sometimes we need to forget. Other times it's wicked bad to forget.
I forgot in the wicked bad way. I forgot that just cause I was set back a little that the fight wasn't over yet. I forgot that a lot of people love me and look at me for stuff. I forgot that someone very special to me doesn't need to have tyger bites because I'm mad at myself, medical science and god, and anyone who got too close while I was being an asshole. So like, even if you forgot, like I did, you can always remember, and hope your friends can remember to forget.
Timmy, I hope you can forget too, but in the good way. I know that whatever this person that upset you did must have been really bad. I don't think you'd react like that if it was just something like him telling you to "fuck off." I talked with you a few times and you don't seem like the nasty type. Marc, I hope you can forget too. Not that people sometimes don't understand you, because I hope that you are wise enough to realize how much people still need you. Robby says you're wise in ways some folk don't consider, and that's their loss if they can't at least see that you've got good points. I hope that what you forget is how much some stuff hurts. Not forget the hurt, just not remember it so that it makes you madder. People on the internet don't always think about how they say stuff. They just say it so that it makes a big impression and not always a good one. I hope you forget the big egoes and remember the little hearts. I hope you remember open minds. And I hope you don't think I'm being some whiny brat, even if Robby thinks I am sometimes. Guess I forget how old I am sometimes. Robby says a lot of people have that problem too.
There's someone on the board I gotta say something to, in private. Details aren't important, the one I'm talking to knows. "I forgot. I tried to keep you safe by pushing you away. I forgot that I can't push you away anymore. I forgot about always. I forgot you're hurting too. I'm sorry."
Um, I don't know how to end this, I really didn't want to write all this much. I don't even know if I made any sense in this. All I do know is that there's a lotta people here that really care about each other. And I do appreciate how everyone's pulling for me, even if I've been a total ass the last few days. Thanks for everything, and thanks for remembering, and thanks for forgetting the bad stuff I did. I'll try harder next time to be worthy of all your prayers and hopes and stuff.
Cya, Sammy, aka Tyger
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