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SO It seems I don't write very much at the moment I am on my parents computer sicne mine is sick... *ugg* Anyway while thats debugging it self Ill type this.
I wrote you guys ebfore and told you how I jsut dont care anymore what people think and all of that jazz.
WEll there is this girl in my class and I think surprisingly we became pretty good friends this summer. I used to think she was the biggest drag, like I never wanted to be around her and would go to great lengths not to.
Yet with boy friend trouble and a few other problems I had this summer she became a pretty good compassianite friend. I had noticed that she had changed a lot this summer from when I first emt her back whenever. SOme mutual 'friends' of ours were now describing her as a 'mega bitch' in there words.
What ever I thought she was just wicked nice and just a great person, like our personalities really clicked. SO I knew a while ago that she got some anti deppressants and that she had been losing some weight (she WAS overweight) so I didn't think much of it.
WEll today in gym she lets me know that shes been feeling suicidal, her meds aren't helping, and that shes anerexic and hasn't slept in 7 days. Hence her mom is makign her go to see a shrink. WEll a guy sitting next to us while we were talkin promptly added that I should go with her to the shrink maybe they could have a two for one or something.
I guess my thing is what does it mean when the person you thought was most normal and enjoyable to be around wants to kill herself and is being sent to a shrink? LIke does that mean I am actually fucked up and just don't know it. OBviously the people around me thought I should be seeing a shrink as well but God. I have finally been feelling happy? I dunno more content at least. I made a new friend at work and I smile so much now....
Yet everyone sthinks that i'm gonna like blow up the school or kill myself or something. Maybe I'm not becoming as mnormal as I thought I was? I mean.
What does it mean when the people who society deem normal seem so fucked up to me? Yet the one person I thought was normal I'm being told is the most screwy????
This was longer then I expected but I am really confused and kinda depressed now actually. I didn't know that thats how people looked at me or saw me or whatever. I always though that i was just normal.
Why are you wearing that stupid man suit?
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