refumpiree
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Location: USA
Registered: August 2004
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Guys, I shared this with Timmy a few weeks ago. He suggested I share with all. Please know I am not sad, but I do have an empty spot that can bring on some melancholy feelings from time to time.
Looking forward to your comments.
dc
Tim,
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> Like you I have been married for twenty-five years. I love my wife, my
four daughters, my sons-in-law, my granddaughter and soon to have grandson
very much. I would never do anything to hurt them. I know if I revealed my
innermost thoughts to them, they could not handle them. I have no intention
of acting on the repressed feelings that I have, however, I had to say
something to someone who might understand.
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> Growing up, sex was revealed to me at the early age of seven, by another
boy three years older than me. I never was afraid of it, and honestly loved
it from the beginning. I guess everyone does when they are not afraid.
Anyway, it seems that from that time through my teenage years, I was
sexually active with a number of other boys.
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> About the time I started driving though, I started realizing that the
lifestyle I enjoyed was not going to be accepted and convinced myself that
it was a part of my life that had to die, so I put it away. I dated several
young ladies and eventually married a girl that I have known all my life. As
you can see from the first paragraph, we have been quite happy and
"productive."
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> My last experience with another guy was when I was seventeen. Since then,
the desires for "man-sex" have been just under the surface. Never completely
out of my mind - I have always been attracted to a good looking man.
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> Six years ago, a young man I have loved as one of my own children, came
out. Yes, he is the age of my children, but since he was a teenager, he
had/has been a friend. We have common interest in music. His coming out was
a shock for everyone, including me, and I thought I was close to him. I
tried to explain to him what a difficult life he was choosing and get him to
rethink his decision - however, he knew himself better than anyone and was
much braver than anyone I have ever know.
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> This week, I met him again for the first-time in six years. He was always
a cutie, but he is gourgeous! From a distance, unseen and unaware of where
he was, I have loved this boy. Seeing him again convinced me I was not wrong
about what I felt. His confidence in life, pursuit of his goals and his
decision to be the person he knows he is make him even more beautiful to me
than ever.
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> I knew you would understand my mind, after I read your bio. I will never
leave my wife for anyone else. I do love her and care too deeply for my
extended family to pursue another relationship that no of them could ever
accept. I suppose I am fortunate that he has a relationship himself, for
over a year now. I hope to meet this fortunate young man this week too.
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> If only!!!????
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> dc
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