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Eothain
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Location: Rohan!
Registered: April 2004
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I'm gonna die anyway, so why should I just prolong the suffering? Now, today as a day itself wasn't great. Firstly, I had that Sigur Ros video stuck in my head the entire day, secondly the year 7s apparently didn't want to play football as the field was empty so I played football by myself... with a flat ball. Thirdly, the geography teacher wasn't here so my favorite subject consisted of doing chemistry work followed by sitting ontop of my briefcase by the entrance to the first school. Then I had chemistry when we were told that the first practicle assessement is coming up, probably a week tommorow, and I suck at practicles. And I've lost my chemistry textbook so I can't do the prep. Then I get back a test ando home to saftey and sanctury (or so I thought), I was quite the whole way back as I was pretty meh... Then just as we approach home, my mum turns around t find out I get a D. A bloody D for godsake! WTF is that?! Then well, I go me and says stuff like "I'm gonna make arrangements for you go to school by the train, I spend an hour and a half taking you to school every day and your attitude is just stinky. And you've been so rude as to border on (someword I can't remember that sounds like insorbidination but it wasn't that) and quite frankly something I'm appalled to have one of my children behaving like. I don't know what your problem is with me, I always brought you up to be polite" and it just went on... So understandably I was pretty upset, but I just took it in my stride (or as much as possible in that situation) and said "Okay, it's your choice," while trying to hold back the tears (which I attempted to do for the rest of the journey, then when I got home, she was going out somewhere so she dropped me off, I went upstairs ignoring my dad and just broke down... I don't bloody have anything against her, I'm not intentionally rude! So I don't talk all the time, so I snapped at her once on Saturday accidently... And if you don't get what my problem is... HOW ABOUT YOU ****ING WELL ASK ME AND TRY TO HELP INSTEAD OF ****ING SHOUTING AT ME?! And she's saying I'm the worst of her children! THANKS A LOT! I NEVER DID AS BAD STUFF AS MY SISTER! Oh well, who cares about that, let's just make my life a misery. Fate just wants to see how many kicks in the balls (metaphorically) it takes to knock me out... Well I think however many it has been now is as many as I can take, or at least close... I see no light at the end of this tunnel... Things are just going to get worse and worse... There's no reason to go on, there's no reason not to end my life... I wouldn't be missed, everyone would just move on within about five minutes... Things arn't going to get better, there's no way they can... I just wish I had enough courage to... pay the final toll...
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Why bother going on?
By: Eothain on Mon, 08 November 2004 17:28 |
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Re: Why bother going on?
By: Eothain on Mon, 08 November 2004 18:21 |
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It will work out
By: timmy on Mon, 08 November 2004 21:09 |
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Re: Why bother going on?
By: blue on Mon, 08 November 2004 18:51 |
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Re: Why bother going on?
By: joesdog on Mon, 08 November 2004 21:30 |
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Re: Why bother going on?
By: tBP on Tue, 09 November 2004 17:06 |
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Re: Why bother going on?
By: Eothain on Wed, 10 November 2004 23:50 |
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Re: Why bother going on?
By: blue on Thu, 11 November 2004 05:22 |
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Eothain reviews the past week
By: Eothain on Fri, 12 November 2004 23:26 |
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bad week, silver lining
By: blue on Sat, 13 November 2004 14:09 |
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And it begins again...
By: Eothain on Mon, 15 November 2004 19:55 |
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A bit of reality might be in order.....
By: marc on Tue, 16 November 2004 02:29 |
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a bit of compassion
By: blue on Tue, 16 November 2004 06:20 |
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Re: a bit of compassion
By: Eothain on Tue, 16 November 2004 23:18 |
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Update
By: Eothain on Thu, 16 December 2004 19:35 |
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Re: Update
By: timmy on Thu, 16 December 2004 19:47 |
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Another update
By: Eothain on Thu, 13 January 2005 20:19 |
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Re: Another update
By: nick on Thu, 13 January 2005 22:43 |
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Re: Another update
By: joesdog on Fri, 14 January 2005 20:25 |
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I have read most of your posts....
By: M on Sat, 15 January 2005 06:19 |
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This drama....
By: timmy on Sat, 15 January 2005 12:13 |
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Re: This drama....
By: Eothain on Sat, 15 January 2005 17:45 |
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Good news
By: timmy on Sat, 15 January 2005 22:47 |
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You took the words out of my mouth...
By: M on Sun, 16 January 2005 03:26 |
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Re: Good news
By: joesdog on Mon, 17 January 2005 10:36 |
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Re: Good news
By: timmy on Mon, 17 January 2005 12:55 |
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Re: This drama....
By: blue on Tue, 18 January 2005 01:41 |
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Re: This drama....
By: Eothain on Tue, 18 January 2005 23:01 |
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Re: This drama....
By: timmy on Tue, 18 January 2005 23:48 |
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Someone to talk to?
By: Eothain on Sun, 06 February 2005 00:16 |
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Re: Someone to talk to?
By: timmy on Sun, 06 February 2005 00:31 |
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Re: Someone to talk to?
By: NW on Sun, 06 February 2005 00:57 |
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Re: Someone to talk to?
By: marc on Sun, 06 February 2005 03:26 |
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Re: Someone to talk to?
By: timmy on Sun, 06 February 2005 12:02 |
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