A Place of Safety: General Talk

Show: Today's Messages :: Show Polls :: Message Navigator

Fathers and Sons [message #30840]

Mon, 10 April 2006 04:35

pimple

Likes it here

Location: USA
Registered: March 2006
Messages: 375

Greetings

I'm not sure I can write this, anger can surprise you when you think you are well past it.

I got a call today that my father has had a stroke. Not unexpected considering his age, triple digits is something I wouldn't wish.... that isn't the intention of my post. It looks like it will close the book on him, and I am surprised at how angry I still am with him.

He has never, and now will never, apologize for the terrible parent that he was. Fifty years ago we touched on it briefly in a heated discussion, and his only comment was that '...it wasn't in him, and I should let it go, and get over it...' Believe me; I've tried! But I have worn the consequences of something he was able to dismiss in a single line for my entire life, in every aspect of my life. There is no resolution now, and there can never be, and my blood pressure is up twenty points thinking about how little it mattered to him and how much to me.

Perhaps there was an up side, I heaped all the affection, concern and attention that I could on every kid that came through the door for as long as they were here, and there have been a number, but having not been loved, I've never been sure I loved.

It looks like I will be in Arizona for Easter - pretending...

So, how is it with your fathers (and sons)?

Simon

Joy Peace and Tranquility

Joyceility

		Fathers and Sons By: pimple on Mon, 10 April 2006 04:35
		Re: Fathers and Sons By: JFR on Mon, 10 April 2006 06:49
		Re: Fathers and Sons By: timmy on Mon, 10 April 2006 09:40
		Re: Fathers and Sons By: Silfer on Tue, 11 April 2006 02:16
		Re: Fathers and Sons By: pimple on Tue, 11 April 2006 03:15
		Re: Fathers and Sons By: Silfer on Tue, 11 April 2006 05:06
		Re: Fathers and Sons By: kupuna on Tue, 11 April 2006 06:53
		Re: Fathers and Sons By: Handyman on Tue, 11 April 2006 11:52
		Re: Fathers and Sons By: Brian1407a on Tue, 11 April 2006 14:05
		Re: Fathers and Sons By: pimple on Tue, 11 April 2006 15:15
		Re: Fathers and Sons By: Handyman on Tue, 11 April 2006 15:44
		Re: Fathers and Sons By: timmy on Tue, 11 April 2006 16:23

Previous Topic:	Roar Mystery Sickness
Next Topic:	Online stories abandoned by their authors

Goto Forum:

[

]

We support Ukraine — Мы поддерживаем Украину — Ми підтримуємо Україну

We support the Palestinian people in their struggle against oppression