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Thu, 12 July 2007 18:18

Senne

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Location: USA
Registered: July 2007
Messages: 301

My best friend Sam,
he was the first person i told I was gay, he totally accepted me
we hung out and played poker, we did everything, I helped him with his homework alot giving him answers and stuff. he became my support system when my grandmother suddenly had a massive heart attack on March 4th of this year, and he offered to go with me to the funeral he laid flowers at her grave, I knew at the time that I loved him, as a brother and more. I guess I tried to be with him too much and he got uncomfortable {hey i had no other friends at that point} after all he was my first TRUE best friend and i didnt want to share him with anyone

on a rather depressing night when i tried suicide he wrote me these words
which i share with you all now.
{ignore his spelling mistakes}
"jordan you can not do this you are worth so much more
think about me man imagine how man other people you will
hurt not just your self. your a great man and frind towards me i need you
i know you will always be there for me when ever i need anything not just answers
when i ned help in life your there for me. i need you man . things at home are hard for you
i know but u got to fight through those things. and i know you will because that's
who you are you never give up please man do it for me. you put your trust in me and
i have mine in u. i dont know what ill do with out u . you've made the biggest impact onme out of all me friends. please jordan continue to fight".

what he told me brought me to tears, when i feel exceptionally weak I read what he tells me and i persevere.

Turns out though that Sam will not be returning to my high school. he is moving and changing schools, bastard broke my heart. I dont want to lose him and still dont.

But I guess we cant always get what we want eh?

[Updated on: Thu, 12 July 2007 18:31]

		I guess its okay to share By: Senne on Thu, 12 July 2007 18:18
		Re: I guess its okay to share By: marc on Thu, 12 July 2007 18:35
		Re: I guess its okay to share By: timmy on Thu, 12 July 2007 21:34
		Re: I guess its okay to share By: saben on Fri, 13 July 2007 08:26

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