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Decisions, choices, memories and hell on earth.....  [message #44138] Thu, 02 August 2007 02:28 Go to previous message
marc is currently offline  marc

Needs to get a life!

Registered: March 2003
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A lot of people think I should do something. All my aquaintances and friends collectivly agree, my new psychiatrist and psychologist agree...

The lawyers agree......

The executors agree......

The agents and bank agree......

But......

I know I have to do it. The thing is that I don't want to. I have to go to a place I vowed I would never return and I have to undo a thing I never thought would be undone.

I dont want to do it...... I have to and I want to run and hida rather than do it.

I just dont...... I'm terrorfied what I will find... see... feel... want!

The want is the hardest of all... The knowing who stood in that doorway and forever more will never again...

I just dont want to do this...

It's so easy to get caught up in the numbers... it's a lure and a trap...

The more I think about it the more I believe I wont be able to handle it.

I dont know if I can survive that visit...


Life is great for me... Most of the time... But then I meet people online... Very few are real friends... Many say they are but know nothing of what it means... Some say they are, but are so shallow...
 
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