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This is to the person you wish you were with all the time. The person you can't stop thinking about. The person you dream about, the person who you've given your heart. To the person who doesn't know your name, who you're so desperately in love with. To the person who you've seen in your dreams, who means everything in the world to you.
Keep me close, keep me safe, take care of me everyday. Don't ever hurt me, don't crush me like a twig.
And if you must, hurt me until you're satisfied, until your pain melts away and you start to feel the sensation of peace. Whatever that peace is, may you be blessed with it. You only hurt me cause you love me, right?
Call me what you like, I'll always love you, or is that what I only tell myself when you're beating me like a child? Yet, in spite of it all, when I look in your eyes, I see not an abuser, or a bully, I can still see the person I love, the person who protects me. That is why I stay with you. If not for you or our kids, I may leave, yet, I can't, I'm bound to you by invisible chains which I cannot see.
I am merely, a plaything for you, just a doll you toss around to get me -into the mood.- Am I really that insignificant to you? I'd leave if I could, but as I've said, I cannot, for I am bound to you by the seal of our lips.
When I first felt that sweet kiss you gave me, I was enchanted, and wrapped in your love. But after all, I'm just a woman, what more is there for me, but to serve you, and give you my everything? Is this okay, this kind of relationship? I know not, for I am naive, if only just a little, wrapped around your finger with all the control that you submit me to. It's blackmail I know, but I can't help it. I've gone in too deep to turn back now.
I will love you until I die, that's the pledge I made to you when we got married, even at such a young age. Don't hurt me too much. I may leave a scar...
Love me, or hate me, I'm yours...
~Josh~
This was written cause I'm a little down right now. I wrote it from a woman's perspective, though I don't claim to know any of it. I'm a guy anyway. I just think about a lot of things. Forgive me if I've said anything wrong in this entry.
~Josh~
21.
Love who you want to.
~Josh~
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