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Hello.
How are you? I'm alright. Just finished watching the Maury show. It's on at 3:00 on Fox Rochester where I live. I hardly watch it anymore actually. Mostly, I write poems or play video games. I'll have a job in January. First one. I'm a little nervous right now, it'll probably excel as January gets closer. It'll be at Walmart in the Pet department. It's kinda nice actually. I'm a little nervous.
I got a new computer.  It's really cool. It's got Windows Vista on it. I like Vista. It's got a lot of hard drive space on it. I'll probably get some computer software for Christmas. Though I'm not sure what I want to add to it. I already have everything I want on it, which is pretty much only Firefox and a program to write poems in.
I know that I post a lot of depressing poems on here. Thanks for reading them. Heh. I'm thinking of myself as a five year old kid. Kids are so cute, aren't they. Not really many cares in the world, as long as their with their Mother. I wonder why they tend to bond more with the Mother then the Father.
I keep switching my music in Windows Media Player. Yesterday, I went to bed at 1:00 AM and woke up at 4:00 AM. I just couldn't sleep. I have a heater on full blast in my room, which is good, cause if it's off it get very cold in my room. Around 7:00 I took a walk outside in the cold for around 40 minutes. It was refreshing. I was very cold, but it was nice. I felt a little frozen actually. I didn't freeze though. I wanted to make it all the way to the blue Belleville sign, but decided not to. On the way back it was nice. Though I was really cold, I got to see the sun come up, so that was a nice thing to see.
Before I left, I had to make sure three times that I closed the door correctly. I sometimes have to triple-check things so I know. I didn't want Mom and Bob to wake up to a cold house. When I came back, it took a while to warm up.
I have this five year old voice in my head saying this as I type it. Is that odd? That's okay. I'm still me regardless. I apparently have a disability called asphbergers syndrome. It's got a wierd spelling huh.
The reason why I called this: "Still got a problem of mine." is because I still have a major problem with pornography. Today, I haven't looked at any, and I've made sure of that. But it is so hard not to. I want to make it clear, that I hate looking at it. It's still an addiction that I have, and I wish it would go away. I only actually look at porn when I want to J/O (jack-off.) Everytime I do that, and I look at porn while doing it, I feel a rush of some sort. But then after it's all done, I feel very sad. I know it's wrong, and if it's not, I feel that it is. I always tell myself afterwords that I'll never do it again. So far, I haven't. I have to be the one to stop, and I know that. This is basically Day 1 that I haven't looked at any. It's a starting point for me. Everything's gotta start somewhere. This is my 20 year old voice in my head now.
Anyway, I'll let ya go, nii-chan. I don't think of myself as a five year old, but it's better that I do. That way I don't think I'll act like I do.
Bye for now.
~Josh~
21.
Love who you want to.
~Josh~
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Still got a problem of mine.
By: Josh on Thu, 20 November 2008 21:23 |
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Re: Still got a problem of mine.
By: acam on Thu, 20 November 2008 22:38 |
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Re: Still got a problem of mine.
By: timmy on Thu, 20 November 2008 22:43 |
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Re: Still got a problem of mine.
By: Josh on Fri, 21 November 2008 00:02 |
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Re: Still got a problem of mine.
By: timmy on Fri, 21 November 2008 00:08 |
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Re: Still got a problem of mine.
By: Josh on Fri, 21 November 2008 02:43 |
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Re: Still got a problem of mine.
By: yusime on Fri, 21 November 2008 08:18 |
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Rambles
By: acam on Fri, 21 November 2008 08:35 |
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Re: Rambles
By: JFR on Fri, 21 November 2008 08:47 |
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Re: Rambles
By: PeterSJC on Fri, 28 November 2008 00:34 |
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Re: Rambles
By: Roger on Fri, 28 November 2008 19:36 |
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Re: Still got a problem of mine.
By: PeterSJC on Thu, 27 November 2008 18:16 |
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Well. not ADD but maybe hispanic
By: acam on Thu, 27 November 2008 22:16 |
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Re: Well. not ADD but maybe hispanic
By: PeterSJC on Fri, 28 November 2008 01:11 |
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My name is really Peter.
By: Nigel on Fri, 28 November 2008 10:30 |
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Re: My name is really Peter.
By: PeterSJC on Fri, 28 November 2008 15:46 |
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Re: My name is really Peter.
By: Nigel on Fri, 28 November 2008 21:50 |
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Re: Well. not ADD but maybe hispanic
By: acam on Fri, 28 November 2008 10:51 |
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Re: Well. not ADD but maybe hispanic
By: PeterSJC on Sun, 30 November 2008 14:31 |
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Re: Well. not ADD but maybe hispanic
By: acam on Sun, 30 November 2008 15:04 |
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Re: Still got a problem of mine.
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