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Sat, 11 July 2009 09:03

timmy

Has no life at all

Location: UK, in Devon
Registered: February 2003
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When my mother died I renewed intermittently an old acquaintance. I got back in touch with Ali, the girl on the sailing page of my website, because I knew she liked my mother and, while she would be unable to come to the funeral, she would appreciate knowing.

Recently I sent her a good few photos I'd scanned in of her own family, as well as the one of her behind the boat, and we've been chatting by email. Yesterday she asked me why I was disparaging about my parents.

It's odd how each revelation seems to take courage, and yet I know that sexuality is a very small aspect of who I am. I gathered up that courage and emailed her a reasonably compact version of how I had been so terribly afraid of my parents while I was a teenager, and why.

Of course Ali does not live online. She has a real life. She and her husband farm, and, knowing her, she farms energetically. So I don't expect a reply for a few days.

It's not that it's important whether she approves or not, that's the weird thing. If she doesn't approve I'll not see her again. If she does it's still unlikely. But she knows, now, why I pushed all my friends away, illogical as it was to do so.

So why am I watching my inbox for a reply?

This evolving process can be tough.

[Updated on: Sat, 11 July 2009 09:05]

Author of Queer Me! Halfway Between Flying and Crying - the true story of life for a gay boy in the Swinging Sixties in a British all male Public School

		It may be an evolving process... By: timmy on Sat, 11 July 2009 09:03
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